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♥Sunday, May 31, 2009

Since friday i have lost my voice. i am unable to speak clearly. Lucky friday i ask the other girl to take over me as i think i won't be able to rush back from National Skin Centre. But ended up is i got no voice so lucky she take over me. My voice was still weak on sat but no choice i have to work. i was almost late for work as i was over slept think is becoz i am sick so whole body feel kind of lazy and tired. But i only late for 5min. Finally me and pei yun ended work. it was a long tired day and a super tired day. hehe. Today my voice haven totally come back so hopefully tml will be better. Tml i am working. I wish i wish it will rain tml,, rain the whole any and with lots of wind. so that working can be great tml. hehe.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

last friday on 22th of may i went for a operation @ National Skin Centre. I don't why i wasn't feeling scare at all. The feeling was just normal like i am used to it. It only painful when the injection of the anaesthetic only. After that i have to wait for awhile before the skin biopsy start as i was told by doctor if feeling any pain during the biopsy i should let them know so that more anaesthetic can be administered. The injection of anaesthetic was only at the part that the operation carry out. and went back to National Skin Centre on this friday to check the healing of the wound. The wound was healing pretty fast and the scar was a small one. hmm. But feel kind of a waste trip to there as the lab test result was not out yet. Still waiting for the result. Hopefully by the next visit i will know whar happening on my face. Going back for appointment on 10th of june which is the week after and its a wed. i wasn't working on that the so in kind of okay. Hopefully every thing will e fine.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Sunday, May 24, 2009

my E71 (Grey)

in LOVE with IT.

Yeah. finally got the hp tat i want

another 1 down from wish list.

the only 1 in grey was reserved for me at PS

as i was told that it was the one and only

at the period of time when all outlet is out of shock

waited for daddy to came home from work

ask dad to accompany me go down PS

to purchase the E71 in grey

lucky i went down today

otherwise no chance to go le

mon - sat i not free coz of work

work more earn more so it ok.

i am online in msn now using my new hp

i so in LOVE with my hp!

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

My New Song

Almost Paradise
(English Translation)

brighter than the morning
is your love coming towards me
it's as though i have the whole world

in my life
like a dream in my tired life
if only it is you, who came to me
that i can love forever

holding your hand
yell to the world with all my might
walking the skies
i promise to love only you forever
the paradise that unfolded in our dreams
i can go anywhere if it's with you to the my paradise

forget the pain and the times of suffering you've had
it's the start now together with you
we're going to take off, running
loving you forever

almost paradise
warmer than the sun
are your eyes that are looking at me
it's as though i have the whole world

in my life
like a light in my tired life
if only i can cherish forever the love you gave to me

all of my love
all of my life
hanging all i have on the line
i love you

like the blue ocean is our wonderful paradise
i can go anywhere if it's with you to the my paradise

forget the pain and the times of suffering you've had
it's the start now, together with you
we're going to take off running
loving you forever

almost paradise
brighter than the morning
is your love coming towards me
it's as though i have the whole world

in my life
like a dream in my tired life
if only i can cherish you who came to me

your smile is like one of an angel
in our filled paradise
i'm going to fill it with the flowers that are just for you

almost paradise
warmer than the sun
are your eyes that are looking at me
it's as though i have the whole world

in my life
like a light in my tired life
if only i can cherish forever the love you gave to me

if only i can love you forever.

(it's nice watching it, i give 10 out of 10 for this)

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Thursday, May 21, 2009

today was having a reali bad day. i went out to PS starhub

as the staff on the hotline service, said there is 1 E71 over there

so i went down as i wanted to reserve it.

but in the end it was all wrong information

but it was ok as i already nv put much hope on it

i leave my mobile num to both the shop at PS and OUB centre

ask them to give me a call when there is stock.

as i was diappointed again i was to TCC and buy a cake

then took train home, unlucky thing happen again

while i was on the train, a man who was rushing to get off the train

Step on my feet and he oso step on my new sandals.

oh my god, it was painful the most hurt was

the acessories that was on the sandals was lost

and i couldn't find it at all, how sad.

its the 1st day of wearing the sandals.

i went to charles & keith to try to ask if it can be fix.

lucky hey can try to fix it. home sweet home.

eat my cakes, oh so sweet i love it.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

when can I get this Hp, when will it be in stock.

got the money but out of stock.

it so Fu*king lame to hear this.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Wednesday, May 20, 2009

It start to be a happy day, wake up go to gym and back home for dinner. Then daddy came home, asking me if i would like to go buy the hp that i always want. Of coz, i say yes. So we cab down to IMM StarHub. But i wouldn't believe it that i get to know next. As they said they only have nokia E71 in red. The grey one is out of stock at there. The staff ask me to call 1633 to ask for the outlet that have Grey in stock. Anyway i didn't purchase a hp which is for my mum nokia 6500 in black. As like the staff say i have to call to ask so to know which outlet have then go down. I called and a lady pick up the phone was very rude and she couldn't speak clearly on the line. Like I said I wanted to ask which outlet have (Nokia E71 in grey). The answer was Non of the outlet in Singpore have that handset in their store. Is it meant that WHOLE S'pore StarHub Shop is out of stock for nokia E71 grey? And the voucher of a value of $100 is sent to me but the expiry date is 4 June 09. It 14day to the expiry date so till then if the handset i wish to purchase is still out of stock what should i do. Are StarHub going to extend my voucher. Or is it meant the voucher is totally useless in the 1st place. I'm really disappointed with the kind of service attitude from the staff at StarHub it doesn't it the staff at the shop or the Customer Service Hot Line. All it matter now is StarHub had a poor management and poor service. Letting customer go all the way to their outlet to purchase handset then get to know that the handset not only out of stock in 1 outlet but is out of stock in all the outlet in Singapore as what their customer service staff said. When a handset is going to out of stock no 1 in the store do anything about it like start to order. Are you trying to tell me that no 1 check stock at all or you order when it's really out of stock. Then letting customer walk out of your store getting the disappointment of wasting their trip there and here and get nothing in the end. Then i really i doesn't know how many customer walk away becuase of this. I am sure i am not the !st one to be so disappointed. But if i am over disappointed it because it was a hp that it in my wishlist for so long and finally i can get to buy it, but it out of stock and the staff was so rude while speaking on the line. How would i not to be angry. I am really Angry till i doesn't want to go out not even sin tua. Tot it would be the best present to get the Hp before i go to operation on Fri. But now i get nothing but just disappointed and angry. Fu*king Angry with all the thing today!!

I hope you will faster reply to my feedback and with the ans for my qns.:
(When is the handset going to be in stock? Can you inform me once it in stock and which outlet to go to? And if by 4 june 09 it not in stock yet, are you going to extend your voucher for me? All this qns it for StarHub.)

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, May 18, 2009

today is 1st day of work.

it was actually quite fun work

stay there 3hr den go home awhile

at 5pm go back to till 8pm

hopefully tml is another better day

gonna take lots of photo tml.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

today is sun jus like normal i didn't go out

stay at home all the way till evening time

went to jurong point with da jie and mummy

It's Charles & Keith time

jie jie brought 4 pair of shoes for herself

and she help me pay for 1 pair too

so in total we brought 5 pair all together

we shop around 4 awhile more

my da jie wanna treat us dinner

we head to Sakae Sushi,

called dad to meet us there

had a great dinner tonight.

is it nice, i love it..

i love green tea!

The colourful pales.

Both of my sister fav!!

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Saturday, May 16, 2009

After the briefing i went to take bus, i was again the 1st to reach bugis. May be nxt time i should say a earlier meeting time to them. Yue ting was the 2nd to reach, we went to the new bugis mall to walk walk but it like nothing much. Joleen Luv came. Dinner at swenswens, i wasn't hungry so i eat ice-cream. jian feng came to join us, a shock to me and joleen tat why he will come and meet us. When it like a girls outing. I was afraid that he will feel bored. Lucky he is not. There's nth much at bugis, may be it a wrong idea to meet them there. Should have meet them at Suntec City or Marina Square. Becoz in the end we left bugis and headed to cityhall area. I am like going from here to there den back to the same place. Went to Marina Square, walked awhile. Of coz nxt its explanade, chill @ Starbucks and then Albert came from his sin tua. Stay till 1plus then we walked to bus stop. Waited for Our NR to arrived. yue ting it the lucky 1 a her NR was the 1st to arrived, the follow by albert, jian feng and joleen. Oh my god lo, mine NR was the last to arrived and of coz i guess i am the last to reach home. 1st to reach and last to reach home so FUNNY. Finally home sweet home.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

went to the briefing yday afternoon.
got my uniform, going to start work on mon.
schedule wasn't much day to work.
i really wish i can work more days
i really need to earn more money.
anyway schedule will be sent to me by email.
it will be plan in every 2wk or 1month time ba

now looking for another part time job
better it early morning till 11am at near by places
or at night but i dun wanna work night life le.
really looking for free timing part time job.
if you noe any please tell me. thank you.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Friday, May 15, 2009

hmm. i only sleep awhile jiu wake up le.
going back to sleep later. coz nv sleep much.
but not to 4get i have to wake up at 11am
going for the job briefing later at suntec
at going to start at 3pm to latest 5pm, i guess.
kind of waiting to noe what are the working hours like
and the number of working day per week.

not to forget i am meeting up LOVE joleen and yue ting
after my briefing, gonna meet them at bugis
it been awhile since i last went there
going to the new shopping mall at bugis later
i gonna take lots of photo back
as i hardly meet both of them tgt.

LOVE, i can't wait to see both of you.

We are going to have lots of fun.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Wednesday, May 13, 2009

today its wed, jus like normal i stay at home all day
only went out in the morning to pay up my hp bill
thank daddy for giving me money to pay my bills
was reali stress about money and bills
finally i can put down a stress and left another.
i still own people money but i haven get my salary
waiting for my salary, reali hope to get it soon.

oh ya, just like yday i have good new, so does today.
i am going for a briefing on fri for the part time job
just hope hey will schedule me with a long working hours
i dun mind to work long hours, so that i can earn more money.
to save and give my parents, at least for 2months

Really a big thank you to my Dad for the money for the bills
and oso for next week fri the day operation @ National Skin Centre
Dad has to spend alot for me this month
and Dad is going with me on nxt fri for the operation. Love my Dad!

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Yday got a phone call, it from the person from the part time job. So happy, she ask me to sent her a resume and photo of myself. I doesn't have a resume so start to prepare. Finally notice work experience is very important. I didn't noe what to write. Yday rushing the resume out. Yeah, i got it done in the end. Email it to the ladys but think i enter the wrong email. So in the morning she msg me telling me that she didn't receive. I resend to her. In the afternoon i msg her again, jus wanting to noe how would i noe if i am shortlisted. She reply "yes you are shortlisted, will update me when to go down for briefin." Oh My God, i am so happy lor. i got the job and hopefully going to start work nxt week. Anyway even it a part time job but it's a work experience so that in future i got many job experience. I just want to earn money to pay up my bills and return my friend. Thank god, please bring me to a right way of living. Living like a useful person and not a useless person. No matter what is it like in the future. I oso will work hard.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, May 11, 2009

Happy Birthday to my Darling Joleen!!

Hope you like the persent.

Once again Happy Birthday to you.

May all your wishes come true. :P

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Sunday, May 10, 2009

Yday went to Joleen chalet.

at home do nothing at 1st.

then start preparing to go out.

prepare for quite awhile.

meeting jian feng at 6.50pm

but i was still at home at tat time.

lucky we both are late, so non of us wait.

been so long since i meet up him.
we chat all the way to pasir ris.

then meet up the rest at chalet.

had fun totally as a group.

it been so long since we meet up as a group.

but was abit tired in the end.

Darling and me sit on the stair and chat

then went out to buy drinks.

back to chalet and the rain started

all waiting 4 the rain to stop.

Darling and me clear the mess on 1st floor

thank Albert for cleaning up the mess on 2nd floor.

Rain finally stop, was too tired to do anything.

just wish to cab home faster and rest.

cab home with jian feng and his friend.

Home Sweet Home.

Darling really enjoy your chalet.

Hope you enjoy too.

may be i was so tired it becoz fri i oso toning outside ba.

but i reali enjoy spending the whole night wif close friends

it like the past when we spend whole night outside totally.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Friday, May 08, 2009

It was really a disappointing day. With such a disappointment and with all the stress that all behide. I dunno what to say. I doesn't wish to quarrel about my salary. All the while i was talking nice to them. I even trying to text my msg clear as ppl intend to read the msg wrongly. Sometime they get a wrong meaning that i never meant it. There is all kind of way to read a mag but when some people which already dislike you. They read it in their way from bad to worst. Why people always want other to think in their shoes but not thinking back in other's shoes. I know you are having a hard time. That why in all my msg i said i am not rushing you. It just that i need to know a time. Cannot be you sack me already then you start to said such words. Remember when you wanted to sack me what you said? All the msg is still with me, you said come back and get your salary next week and all those thing. this week is the next week le. i understand it very tight for you. But you has no need to say all this in so rude way. I really got nothing to say about all this. I just want to get it settle that all. It not an excuse that my mum been asking where's my salary. Think back your mum will sure ask you where's your salary because you have been working but why you still say you have no money and ask money from your parent. Is for sure they will want to know where the hell your money when to. If you guy don't believe she asked then wheather you want to talk to her and ask her if she asked me. Or even explain to her why you haven pay up my salary. I believe the salary is i xin xin gu gu work then got de. if it you in my shoes i think most people will say the same word. I really just want to get my salary nicely and don't make it like a quarrel.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

From feb to this month is my worst month of the year. i hope when all this is settle, it's reali all over. Having a hard time of my life. i hope it's only this few month is worst after that it will be fine le. I am tired of all this le. I can't even sleep at night whenever i think of all this. I hope it will settle asap. So that my life can back to normal. For those that hate me alot or don't care about me, please tell me and get lost. I don't want you all to disturb my life. Everyone has other personal life and it where other should not go into it. Otherwise why is it called personal? Am i right. So please settle all this with me fast, i don't want to waste my time in all this. I just want to get a full time day job and work hard for it. Life is not very long and some is very short so don't waste other time.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Thursday, May 07, 2009

--BEST memories--

me and darling sharon. (i love her!!)

me and xin mei my best girlfriend

My AiAi Sabrina and me!!

my Birthday 2008.
will never forget this birthday cake
it small but touch me the most
thanks to you yi.

my birthday celebration with darling.

"i wish to celebrate my every year birthday with all my darling."

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Feeling lost nowadays, doesn't know the next step what i should do.

Am i feeling lost because of relationship, work or personal problem.

I really don't know what to do. Life seem so miserable.

At time to time people build up a hope on you.

It is when the stress followed you everywhere you go.

Even you know you can ignore and do whatever as you want.

But sometime you just don't wish to disappoint them.

Sometime you won't get the chance to speak up for yourself.

People tend to ignore you too, whenever things happen.

When you make a mistake, people tend to blame you.

Why you do this, why you do that?

But what if i say i also felt sorry for the thing that has happen.

What if i say i have regret for what i have done.

Will anyone forgive me, will anyone care how miserable i felt at the moment

May be the close friend and family will tell you this and not blaming you.

"Learn from the mistake and don't make the same mistaken again."

"I really want to get out of this lost feeling and miserable life."

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Many times, life feels like a journey. Not surprisingly, in dreamland, the journey becomes confused. This may be a simple reflection of a dream that did not make sense or a dream story that did not seem to go anywhere.

However, there are two ways to become lost, both of which say a lot about how we view ourselves in waking. First is being lost because you have choices and lack the ability to know which one to make. This may include dreams of driving a car, mall dreams, amusement park dreams, or other dreams where opportunities become uncertain. The other version of feeling lost is isolation, or a sense that motion is not leading to progress. Which image of feeling lost most accurately conveys your awareness in the dream?

If you are lost due to choices, you may be at a point in life where you are unsure of what you want. This may include vocational, relationship, or personal values that seem "up-for-grabs." It may also reflect an inability to see where a particular choice will take you if you make it.

If you are lost due to motion that does not lead to progress, you may be pretty ambivalent about whether your waking life is meaningful. Your ability to feel effective in life is being compromised in some area that needs a little examination.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

We often think of personal growth as being top-down. You start by asking yourself the Big Questions, followed by a moment of clarity which reveals your life purpose, and finally you’re captured by this irresistible drive which launches you into purposeful motion, and everything just falls into place from there.

Unfortunately, real life isn’t always such a Disney movie. The path to growth is less like a railroad, and more like a gravel road…that’s under construction. It’s full of potholes and ditches, the occasional tree planted right in the middle, and some stretches where there is no road at all, and there’s no map telling you where to turn. It’s no wonder that we all feel lost from time to time, wondering what direction we want to take with our lives, debating whether to leave our soul-sucking job, facing the reality of an unhappy relationship, even struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, May 04, 2009

I toss and turn on my bed.

I imagined myself with him.

It is something that will never happen

You build me up then tear me down
It was too hard to keep all your promises.

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

was only wondering about something.
It was actually nothing.
I turned back and i saw that shadow.
I raised my hand.
I touched his hands.
It was a fake vision.
It was only what I always dreamt of.
There wasn't anyone there.
I turned back and I held my cup.
I drank and I want to remove it.
Remove all those thoughts.
It was not neccesary.
It was all the wishful thoughts of mine.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Sunday, May 03, 2009

Anyway I'm going 4 a day operation on 22th may. Cause that day see le doctor at National Skin Centre. Doctor say no choice is a must otherwise they can't know what going on, on my face. God bless me!! hope nothing much happen on my face. haiZ.. Actually i doesn't want to do this operation de. That what i say when i was at NUH seeing skin doctor. It not anywhere else, it's my face. Really stress up this whole month. I am not working at pub le. Now looking for a day job, a full-time job. Really need to work day job le. Cause i am not studying so i need a job. If not it to find a right course to study, otherwise i have to work le. People there if you have any job to intro me. Please call me on my mobile, but i say 1st (i only looking for day job). Anyway i not going to work night job le. My mummy don't like it. So this time i want to listen to her. I know she never 1 day not worry about me when i come home late so does my dad. Don't want to make them worry.

Anyway this coming sat is joleen my darling luv luv chalet. i kind of miss her alot lo. i can't wait to see her and all my buddy over there. All of us is going, so hard to find this day that everyone is free and going to meet up. It been millon year since all of us meet up.

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

Recently many thing happen, doesn't want to talk about it. but thank for those that been with me all the while. Most important is mei xiu, thank alot without you, i don't know what to do. Anyway just hope my life back to normal. I want to forget about all the unhappiness. Sorry to you, i doesn't want this to happen. I am really SORRY.

Labels: i am SORRY

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."