i been thinking can i do well this yr.... but yet i dun dare to say i will... coz i have been having holiday for 6month last yr.... a damn long holiday make me always feel like i am in a holiday mood... muhaha... i got back my report book today... and u noe what i got the top in this class.... but yet i knew if i dun put my heart in my study i will sure fal 4 my n level.... i am not funny... but veri happy 4 my result now... hmm.... my conduct acually was a POOR in the 1st plac... why do i say in the 1st place... coz i think my teacher make a mistake... i went to ask my principal... since jus right i go to G.O. to find mrs lim but she is not there.... so go talk to my principal awhile... den my dad ask why i get a good result but conduct is POOR.... she say she will check 4 me... den i think mostly is cca... but i got doctor letter tat said i no need to go cca coz i may be can't get use to it to go back.... so if is becoz of cca den my teacher sure make a mistake le... end up my conduct change to GOOD.... since my last yr ending conduct is still GOOD even drop oso wun become POOR... drop oso is a fair only ma... hehe... love my result...





love is like a story book... everyone have a part of the story... but the problem will end up wif the ending.... whether is good or bad... we still have to accept.... in a story book we will see up and down thing happening... but wat if a story is always having good thing happening and no bad thing... i guess u will say is a boring story... but in our life how much we wish here is no bad thing happening in our life... but it will be... loving someone wasn't wrong... but loving the wrong person wasn't right at all.. u must noe who the person is... is he a good guy... did he love u as much as u do... if he didn't.... i think u should 4get it... it useless... i think after what i have been 4 he past 2month... i notice tat love is hurt if u are the only 1 tat care about the relationship.. i given up so much thing 4 him... but yet i got back is this... not even a reply when i asked 4 break up or not even a reply when i ask him to let to noe he is fine... do u noe what deep love is changing... what will it change to... it will change to sadness den dis appointment and at last it didn't change to hate but worry... but i think it will change to worry it only 4 this guy.... coz he got too much thing to let me worry about le...

i didn't go sch today.... so tired... i slept until 1pm den wake up.... go bath den get ready to go down to my work place... my boss went to hong kong and brought me a top from JU's.... it veri nice... and i like it alot... but i guess the size is abit too big 4 me le... i wear le veri loss... tot of going down to my shop to exchange it to other colour de... but think better not... coz the other colour i dun like and even the small size wasn't much diff... so i think i will go kai yi kai.... and somemore the colour tat my boss brought was my fav colour... abit purple de blue.... hehe.... tml guess got go sch bah... fri take report book le.. i think i will do well bah.... hehe... i hope so....

i got full mark 4 my eng listening, round up i get 62 for eng.... den got 61 for my math... is the top 4 math le bah... i guess so... got 77 for EOA, 89 for my CPA... 70 mark 4 chinese... and most funny is i pass my friend this yr... got 58 nia... dun play play.... so tired nowadays.... go home after sch den go meet a friend 4 movie... he is veri an jing de guy... but friendly... nice movie nia... Spiderman 3.... muHAHa...

today got work nia... but i late 4 work... hope i will nv late anymore.... hehe... i guess so tired becoz i tok to ppl on phone till 4am.... den 9am wake up to get ready 4 work.... after working i am so tired.... tml i will get all my subject de mark.. hope i did veri well... hehe... love hurtZ

muhaha... i yday go to boat quay again... i so tired now... reach home at morning 8am.... den i sleep until 6pm den wake up... actually wasn't in a good mood.... but suddenly i tot of msg a friend at mid nite... den when he reply me in the morning, it change my mood... at least when i saw his msg can cheer me up.... i went to level 4 in the end.... go find jacklin.... den go home wif jacklin, her bf benny and others.. i was jus telling jacklin abt my msg den her bf suddenly wake up den start to call the person tat i msg to.... lolx.... den he said alot of funny funny thing to him... coz hey r friend.... haha.... so boring....

so happy... i oto my math will fail.... but i didn't.... i pass and i think i am the top 4 this yr mid yr exam... i think only la... i dun care whether i am the last or wat... as long as i pass hao le... haha.... since my math pass i guess other subject oso will pass.... hehe... so happy nia.... muhaha.... later going out wif mei xiu and her bf... hehe..

hehe.... i brought myself a necklace... hehe.... today went to IMM.... go walk walk alone... i guess i jus wan to be alone... can i? i wan my freedom back... and this is what i choose... i am sorry if becoz what i choose hurt anyone... tml is fri... my bad friday... unlucky friday... i hope i can pass 4 all the sudject... jus pass oso rite wif me... tml my plan is set... go out wif my darling... haha....

today was my marking day holiday so does tml.... i got 2 day holiday... but fri i must go back to sch... i am scare to go back... got to check my exam paper... find mistake and lost mark or get more marks... i wish i will pass 4 all... but i dun think so i think my math will fail... i actually got plan 4 today... but i already been called off.... no plan le... now at home do nth.... i may have friend around me 4 the last fw week but soon or later i will be all alone... i guess i am meant to be alone... no matter what i will alone up alone... i guss i will go out alone later too.... if i am too boring at home.... hehe.... nvm... i am not sad about this.. coz i am so use to it le... haha.... all along i am all alone.... alone going everywhere or doing eveything.... sometime i even go malaysia alone.... u must be think what a lonely ger... tat the reason i call myelf miss lonely.... haiZ... i am happy about this... i got freedom le since 2years ago... but i got no friend... remember when i was sec 2 how close i am wif my friend.... but all its past le... haiZ... close friend end up like this... it all end up not close anymore... 4get it.. be alone den..

i reali dunno what to say... guess this is wat friend call bah.... friendship doesn't last... it jus same like relationship... if i can i wish to be single and happy.... being in relationship wasn't what i wan now.... i can't study hard wif this kind of life... it my only year to work hard 4 my study.... remember i missed 1 year..... pls leave me alone... i nv tot my life will be in such mess... now tat a noe... i must do something wif it....

again i was drunk... but i nv cry in the 1st place... i got control.. do anyone care... in the end hey jus at there talking to me about something i 4got... friend, i am drunk i can't recall it at tat moment... coz i and the jacklin friend drink martell... if u see what happen den u will noe... i am reali drunk liao.... u all walk away... if i am not wrong... end up i alone at there... nvm... it okay... i dun mind... vincent came down to find me.... and send me home.... isn't he a sweet person... i jus give him a call only.... haha.... i now recall everything le... can u let me have a chance to tell u what u told him.... single now... i send a msg... tell him lets be friend.... i hope he understand how suffer i am been... chris.... we may be reali is better off to be friend... hmm.... i already 4get it 4 the person tat i like and i love.... so let me go.... haiZ...

yday i was drunk like hell... crying like hell too... but i noe u r not to replace him... so do i... i am not a ger to replace ur her... do u even noe who is beside u.... i noe who is beside me all along... my stead nv ans my qns... 4get it.... today i go to the same pub... i told someone i wun get drunk so easily.... wun cry at all... i am trying my best now... but yet i saw him and his gf in front of me.... kissing here and there... what the fuck.... lucky xiao xiong msg me and chat wif me... i am crazy....

my paper for today may fail... what should i do.. my eng did badly... cpa oso... what to do... am i crazy.... i can sleep during exam.... i feel my feeling has fade 4 him le... is there another person in my mind... i think it is... but what should i do.. fuck up... my mood was reali bad today...... a friend asked me where is chris.... i said playing majong.... but actuallly i dunno.... what kind of girlfriend am i.... i dun noe.... what should i do 4 this relationship... chris can u ever tell me... should i give up.... but wat 4... the another person i like, love someone else.... so what... what is the fate doing to me.... FATE u noe i will be loving someone like hell but it wun let me let go.... i am going to let go of him... coz i noe he is wat kind of guy... he will nv make me happy... but wat to do... who i love will nv love me.... i am drunk now.... reali drunk... i am in a pub again... wif who is not chris.... i wish i love chris so much tat no 1 can replace nut i am wrong.... LOVE always hurt.... but what to do....



liyun love you lahs. don't cry, smile (:

Mon_math paper 1 & eng paper 1, Tue_science paper2 & eoa paper2, Wed_science paper 1 & cpa paper 3, Today_EOA paper 1, Tml_Fri__eng paper2 & CPA paper1&2...... yday whole so scare... may be is becoz i did so well last year 4 EOA.... tat make me scare i what will happen if i do bad this year.... actually can say i nv sleep at all.... but i think the paper is not tat hard tat i tot it will be in the 1st place.... this two or three day i dun have tat feeling anymore.... the feeing like my heart is stopping down 4 him... like without him, i am so scare.... i hope it good tat i got this feeling right now... at least now is time to study at least 4 exam.... i was thinking ven i worry so much 4 him... will he noe or even care.... relationship is like this... always mess up.... when u tot u r the most lucky person in the world, when u r at the top of the hill.... u will drop down from the hill in jus 1 sec and become the most unlucky 1 in this world... thing always happen fast.... ppl oso like to do things fast.. actually i still love him alot more than what i tot... but is i will to say out thing he does sometime.... i think u will be shock.... he didn't do thing tat r un-fateful to me... but thing tat will make me worry like hell.. u may think it may be a small thing... but its not a small small thing... loving u wasn't wrong.... loving you, may not be 43v3r but i can be sure at least 4 now, every hr, every min, every sec & every moment.... Chris & Patricia!








hmm, peiwen... who is patricia sia? ppl asked me this... hmm... u must be think why is there a ger name patricia on my blog.... tat is my another name.... but i didn't use it becoz it didn't come out on my IC.... and all ppl around me call me pei wen.... i think only 1 of my ex stead call me patricia.... its kind of funny... when he call my house phone and ask 4 me using tat name, my mum will say no such person.... haha.... all my name or nick name= peiwen, xiaowen, wen, patricia, ger ger, ah ger... but lastly only chris can call me tat name... !!Dear!! lolx....

(FRIENDSHIP = backstabbing) why i got this feeling like whenever i wan to say this person is my friend, my best or good friend... he or she will become backstabber... alot of ppl noe i hate backstabber.... but why hey still wan to be 1 of them.... she make use of me.... she told or ask everyone thing about me... when i nv even say a single words..... she make me feel like slapping her... my 1st time... i feel like slapping a ger.... if i do... she will be the 1st 1ger.... she reali having a great time wif someone tat is so important to me.... and she knew tat is my veri important person, my VIP of my life 4 now... trying to make me jealous... saying thing to ppl and tell them it is what i say when i didn't... what the fu*k u are thinking..... i wanna help u open the door of hell and push u in... can i.... fu*k off from me.... please... what u waiting 4... waiting to see me suffer from what u did.... can tell u, u already saw it.... so can u go now... do i need to say it again... stop treating me like a fool....

my mind is full of him... but i am trun all this to another point of view... to make it all about my exam tml.... math, math, math.... i dun even wan to go think about what if i fail my math paper... promise if i fail my math... u can see tear droping and droping like it will nv stop.... i am so scare.... what should i do.... alot of ppl had high hope on me... it make me going crazy.... the only way when i feel relax is when i am drunk.... reali thank alot to flora hey all... letting me drink and drink tat nite.... it noe my only way to relax myself.... money, study and relationship or even friendship... make me go crazy... what i will spend is even more than what i earn.... i can't put myself together to study... i wish i can but i knew i can't even b4 i try.... relationship ah... god bring in the wrong person in to my life.... a person tat 4ever and ever is jus a friend... fate make me hold on to someone tat is going to leave me veri soon.... fate oso make me wanting to fall in love wif another guy which i noe he will nv fall in love wif me....

Don't Quit (from darling jolyn blog)(sorry i nv ask 4 copyright)


When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside ou
tThe silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

i love you like crazy.... i miss u like crazy.... i need u like crazy.... i want u like crazy.... i am crazy all becoz of u.... Chris... dun u noe u r my everything.... i noe sometime u r busy.... i trying my best not to disturb u.... by right i should say u r my bf... i should say i got stead le... but my dear, u treat me like nth.... i wish i can fall in love wif another person... but i noe tat no one can replace u... even now i fall in love wif another person... but it will ended up in the wrong way... so i better hold on to ur hand and nv let go... i hope u wun let go of my hand so fast... at least i can tell myself u r once my dear and i am once ur love one... even its jus for 1min in my life time... it already more than enough.... i LOVE you, my dear chris...

i reali tot of meeting u tonight... but guess this wish is again broken by u.... haiZ.... in the past i nv go tot u treat me good... until now u dun treat me the same like the past den i noe i miss it... it gone... i dunno y i got this weird feeling tat u dun love me now.... not even a single cent.... i am nth to u... i dun msg u, dun call u, dun disturb u... may be it much more better 4 u... not like the past... u ownself will msg me tell me "u miss me alot, why i nv contact u, what am i doing?".. now all this msg fall on me... i am the 1 sending all those msg.... do i need to scold the god 4 this.... he nv give me what i wan... but always find alot of guy to msg me... fan wo... which i noe at least 4 now hey can nv replace u in my heart... did u see my msg... no one else wan replace u.... i now den noe i can't even live without u 4 a day.... i miss u so much....

w€n & ah r€n

ah r€n & sharon

it has been so long ever since i take my own pic

went to sch.... but ended up only go for cpa and SEL lesson.... plus up only 3lesson got subject teacher.... what a boring day... i was actually giving bad mood in the morning.... guess my new classmate dunno whats going on... i am the kind of ppl tat will always got no mood in morning.... so if in the morning i scolded u den i only can say u veri bad luck.... haha.... after cpa my mood change.... i knew it... it becoz of him.. a msg.. can let me change my mood and make me study... i dunno whether will a last long wif him... but i dun care... as long as now he is still wif me... what will happen nxt doesn't matter.. went back home.... den bath and get ready to go meet my darling adeline.... diff adeline ah... not BLSS de... chat wif her at JE... den went back home... i dunno y i always got no mood to study... see how tml... dunno wan go sch ma...

Please keep this simple
You respect here , no trouble , PEACE:D

♥Listen to the beat , I swear you fall in love with the music .

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  basically i just LOVE yOu!!!
 

patricia CHONG pei wEn :p
Working now
14th September 1990
In the RELATIONSHIP
 turning to 20
 
I am
20% Talkative, 10% Evil,
10% Funny, 60% Emo.

 Good health
Wonderful Boyfriend
Thailand Trip with BF
I Phone
Tiffany & Co. RING
Gucci Medium Messenger Bag 
Gucci TOFU Bag 
COACH Signature Top Handle Pouch
LVNeverFULL
Lacoste Polo Shirt
bebe Jacket
Naraya Bags
New Bags
Genting Trip with BF
Waxing tools
start to save more money
earn more money
clubbing wif gf and darling
DKNY Perfume
 more clothes
 more heels
 more handbags
 more dress
sunflower
birthday present
birthday cake
wonderful 20th birthday wif my bf & darling
 

♥Really WISH to

I really wish to start my life all over again!!
people might think that i am CRAZY.
but I really wish to make my everyday happy.
Life are so short, you'll never know what's next.

So why not make everyday useful.
make everyday happy.
and LOVE yourself 1st
before you talk about others
nothing else is more important than yourself
SO LOVE YOURSELF!!

♥my Darling

 
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♥Thankyous

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