♥Saturday, April 26, 2008
when to sleep after yday morning de blogging. wake up at 9am, get ready den went to NUH. see doctor. my doctor ask me to see the skin doctor as well becoz of my face. haha. den wanted to meet him de. but in the end he not free in the afternoon. so we nv meet up in the afternoon. i miss him so much till at 7pm den i call him and went over his house. i change to what i gonna wear to work. reali dun wish to go to work de. i feel like being wif him till morning but i can't becoz i got to work. hehe. the nxt day i still have to work at suntec. i try to cancel the working day at suntec but i can't. reali wanted to pei him on sun coz i noe the nxt day he have to go SGH to do some surgery. haiZ. can't be there wif him b4 he go do his surgery. hmm. anyway i miss him and love him.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
1st day started work at there. it was so funny and weird. but i wanna get use to it. so tat the other day when i work i will be not so scare and blur. hehe. i told my lao gong tat i work at pub. he abit shock nia. but he understand me nia. he noe tat i dun have money tat y i work nite life. but i make ita promise tat i wun drink alot and 4 sure i wun let myself drunk. hehe. hope thing goes smoothly. tat all i wan to say 4 this job.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, April 25, 2008
actually going out wif emily de. but ended up she got thing going on. i oso dun wan make her hard life la. so i told her to go do her thing. even i reali hate ps feeling. but i will understand her de. i went to boat quay. went to qb bar 4 work interview. i reach so so early sia. it haven open wo jiu reach le. went in to pass the boss the form. den he interview me. ask me some qns. after tat he say the pay and working timing to me. ask me to wait 4 lady boss to call me. she call me at 8plus. ask me if i could go work tml. hehe. of coz i say okay to her. hehe. going to work tml le. if anyone of u got go boat quay come find me. okay. at whiskey bar. sleeping le. hehe. so sian tml still got sch.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
to me friendship has broken. is it too weak. tat y is broken? i reali dunno. dun wish to say much about what has happen. jus wan to let myself noe i can nv believe is tat b**** anymore. the 1 tat i tot i can share my problem wif but end up she back stab me. plus wait after so long den say out. not i not dare to say is i say de or wat but i jus damn STM de. i dun even remember what i say last week. dun is last month le la. haha. now noe i am STM jiu dun talk much to me, coz i dun remember de. i miss my 2 baobei sister. emily and crystal. but i dunno if we 3 can still be sister anymore. anyway friendshp has already broken jiu can't do anything le. only can wait 4 it to heal. no comment 4 anything else le. takecare
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, April 24, 2008
i was reali missing him. do he notice it. i hope so la. i wanna meet him up. but guess i got to wait till sat. coz he jus told me tat. i will reali get upset wif him. will i ever give up my love 4 him. i guess i will de. it jus soon or later. dun u think so. haiZ. 4get it. it wasn't a good week 4 me. this is wat i can say.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Tuesday, April 22, 2008
yday it a sunday nia. what did i done yday. i think i was at home the whole day. wif my da jie eat mac lo. we had a early dinner. den daddy came home. where is my mummy. she was to malaysia again. it was rather a boring week end. i was so lonely nia. till at nite jj call me ask me if i will go over his house to pei him. i was thinking the nxt day i still have sch. if i reali go over wll i be ble too sch the nxt day. but i knew i always can stand the tired and sleepy de. so i took my hp and key to go over. at his house crystal sms me abt the job thing. i reali wan to get the job. wanna work more earn more money. my now de job nv even let me work more than 3days a month. this month i only work for 2days. isn't it earn nth. so tired but nv earn. hai. what did i done at his house. i do nth at his house lo. i reali reali miss him so when he is beside me i was so happy. look at him 4 the whole nite. den i veri sian so i say i wanna sleep sleep le. hehe. den we 2 go sleep lo. he so cute de lo. today i went home bath and prepare for sch. hmm. i saw him at mrt station sia. we reali got so got fate meh. i reali miss him leh. hoping my wish will come true.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Saturday, April 19, 2008
it a friday. my start of my week end. was reali happy to go out wif emily and crystal de. it started wif enjoying ourself den ended wif ppl scold here scold there. y hey dun wan go back home look in to the mirror and scold themselve. more good ma. at least hey nv scold so much when die no need go to hell. the person called me ask this and tat. do u think without u my life will die. no thank. my life is so happy every single when u r gone. dun thnk i am stupid. remember la talk bad abt ppl is not good le. think b4 u wan say me when it on other thing. not the thing we quarrel. k. so away. dun let me see u. i so scare of u. lame. u oso not ghost y am i scare. lol.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, April 18, 2008
i am moody reali moody. actually i was sleeping de. den something or a dream wake me up. i was so so scare like i gonna loss anything like this. i feel i have found someone tat i wan to love but i dunno whether the person wan my love ma. i think he do noe le. but he nv say anything but jus telling me is abit too fast le. i dunno y i dun feel it fast at all. but since he say so. den 4get it. i dun force him. but will i wait i think will but i scare i wait till the end there isn't any ans how. coz i reali scare i am wasting my time only. haiz. my heart is broken le. i dunno wat to say. if u ask me whether i got any better choice i will tell u yes. i got alot of choice to choose if i wan. but i dun wan i jus wan to follow my feeling. i suddenly feel like crying jus now. my tears drop and drop. i told him and he only asked me not to be moody or sad. say may be think of him jiu wont moody le. i tell him hope so ba. but i think i reali will miss him de. even we jus met each other hours ago. haiZ. relationship is so weird and making me crazy.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, April 17, 2008
ger ger, remember patricia is always here 4 u. i wont let anyone bully u de. coz u r my baobei. ur ah pat alway will protect u. okay.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
school reopen as normal as you can think. but my mood is keep on changing. i suddenly oso feel like quit sch le. study now make me feel like i am reali broke le. i nv feel so no money like now b4. nv be lei tat i got no money at all. ppl tat noe me should noe even i how no money. i still got way to find money out. but now i reali dunno what to do. i reali feel like looking 4 a night time job. tat will earn alot. like a pub waitress. haiZ. i dunno whyi am study this course when i like wasting my timeand money only. heard tat lina may be wan to quit make me even feel more like quit sch and go out to job. reali i think i dunno what myself is doing. i kind of going crazy le. alot of thingdo hapen nowadays. i wan to give up le. and i reali give up on him tat i nv contact him le. i say i will nv mean reali nv contact him le. but i think some ppl i trying to di siao me. when i dun think it funny a all. i hope u r old enough to think. if u all isn't his camp mate i already scolded u all le. coz of my kor kor. i nvsay anything. dun be stupid please.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Monday, April 14, 2008
becoz of a group of army guy and their friend or gf. we change le. jus a 3weeks holiday. we become not tat close le. in the veri 1st place. 3 of us is best sister or best friend. but now i dunno what to say. why becoz of them our frindship jiu like this broken le. it like a very upset thing to say. relationship & friendship all become like this. haiZ. dun say le. i can ever think of the days b4 we noe them. we will so happy. xiao mei mei and dunno how to think de da jie jie. useless de lady. breaking ppl friendship de ppl. am i right. haha. i hate this 1st term holiday tat it.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
i jus noe something. those tat always give in is always the winner. becoz hey r thinking the best way to settle all the thing. i understand tat even how u treat ppl as ur friend. you will nv noe what he is doing behide u de. even he is a guy, he will still become those ppl tat dunno how to think tat back stab you. he can talk whether he like behide u. and make all ppl dislike you. why i say so coz i jus met such a few person yday. i reali treat them as friend and ended up hey dun believe my words. not even a word. so i kind of give up le. dun mess wif them i will still be okay de. but i jus wan to say if u can't drink tat much then dun drink. dun in the end so talk so much tell the rest tat he or she say this and tat thing. when he or she nv said b4. wat a useless guy. but please nv put words in my mouth. i hate ppl tat put words in my mouth. words tat i NEVER say b4. dun ever come and disturb me. with out u all in my life i will be fine de. anyway takecare my friend. even how u wan to say me. i ever treat u as a friend of mine mean u r still a friend of mine. even what u do, u r my friend.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Sunday, April 13, 2008
hmm. i change my mind le. dun hold on to thing tat isn't belong to me. hehe. i give uple. he keep on ask me find ppl to settle down oso must can find the right person den say. i oso wanna settle down le. if not i think once i 18yr old i will change from bad to worst. i wan the right person to control and take care of me. hehe. yday went to 6am to drink wif ding dang, his 2 other friend, han ting and xiao xiong i think so. drink till 6am jiu go home le. i went to someone wan to wake him up. but he nv wake up so i went home. lucky i got home early if not my mummy sure wun let me go out de. hehe. going sin tua later.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, April 11, 2008
life was like so down the hill to me. i was like going crazy when each day pass. hmm. wat happen ah. i lost my hp. i lost my contact, my msg, my baobei hp. even it not a ex. hp but it a hp tat i am very use to using it le. it has lost and i was like cry like hell tat morning. i called emily 1st. den call kor kor but nv ans. den i call syl, he pei wo chat till he has to prepare 4 book in. den i call kor kor to chat awhile. i was reali sad. i wish i didn't was out tat nite. after i got back from his house if i nv go out jiu wont lost le. i miss him like crazy. i wish he was there to hug me to bed. like the past he hug me like tat. why things cannot go back to the past. i miss him. i miss his everything. miss his lazy face. sometime i am always ask 4 fate like to be like this. i am alway lonely de. alway being leave alone. i only got a wish this yr tat is find someone i love to settle down. someone tat can make me give up everything 4 him. jus as simple as this. can my wish come true. like it can't. haiZ. i jus wan to be wif him now. i hope i wun go crazy like this.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Saturday, April 05, 2008
went out to meet mogan after getting scolded by my mum. i went to queenway his house downstair. den we both went down to O2. but he ps me lei. he went to thai disco. i alone wif sk they all. den i call kor kor ask them where hey are. i go down find them at seng kang. now i at seng kang kor kor friend house use computer but going home soon. coz scare my mummy scold. haha.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
i am like kind of miss him alot. i noe u must be thinking i am like kind of kidding ba. but truely say is i reali miss him alot. haiZ. i noe it a no chance. why not i choose the other him. i can be worry abt the other guy but once he said tat he got gf i was like sian. now he say he and his 1 yr gf break off le. i should be happy but he ps me. tat make me angry lei. i hope it wun end up patch again. i wan to settle down reali. i wan to find someone i love to settle down. someone tat i care 4 not the other round lei. coz the other way round wun last long de. i must reali love the guy b4 he can be my bf. not to hurt so many ke lian de guy. but i had to reject them. coz my xin lee got ppl le.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, April 04, 2008
hmm. went to drink with my 2 ger friend. crystal and emily. we all went to 6am. drink martell. was reali enjoying. till hey all came in. why do i say so. coz hey was like looking at us. i promise my kor kor i will take care of crystal de. so i dunno why hey think so much. hmm. drink till 4am like this saw some double O ppl come in and drink. hey r like kind of asking me and emily go drink if their bday boy. haha. but too bad he was like already drink like hell. we took their number. coz if 1 day we going down to double O can go find them. haha.hai. i was like reali drunk in the morning coz of a msg. i can see tat he is avoiding me so i oso wan to 4get le. but why do he still wan to msg me ask me to takecare of crystal. when stupid oso no i will takecare of her de. i complain to kor kor. kor kor tot i was angry wif him. but i told him, no la. i was angry with the other person. oso told kor what hapen tat nite abt the whole thing. coz i was reali dislike abt wat a ger is doing or saying. emily will noe how i feel.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, April 03, 2008
butter factory wasn't tat fun to me coz i wasn't feeling well. i think start to have my low blood again. i was like standing there till i almost wan to faint le. thank to the ger coz she let me drink some sweet drink. but after the whole party i still like going to faint. emily wen to my house to stay we sleep and sleep. dn wan wake up. hehe. and i not feeling well so dun even feel like waking up.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
