in the 1st place it just curiosity
but slowly i fall in love with you
wanted to hold on but yet
i has to pay so much to hold on
i am tired le. yet i still wan to get back
the love tat we used to share
the moment tat we are tgt.

i don't know why
the god given you to me and
he took you from me again
he probably wanted me to know
once i lost you, how much i would miss you
yet he doesn't want to return you to me
it as if he meant it as,
he wants to take everything away.

i love you till i dunno what to do
the love make me so tired but yet
i don't want to give up
i know i have to pay a price 4 what i am doing
but don't you know i really love you.
yet i don't deserve a single trust from you

why do this god want me to suffer so much
isit want me to be not so weak
want me to know the pain
so i know the way to heal if it happen again
but this time round the pain is so much more
more then what i can handle or take it.
give me a chance to love and care
give me what i always want
and dun take it away from me.

yday no sin tua. haiZ
i all the way at home.
ppl who noe me should noe de.
i still love to stay at home.
but got to go BQ again.
coz my customer or new friend de bday
reach there when i think
i shouldn't have been there
coz its all his friend i seem to be so extra
anyway happy birthday to him
wheni was at BQ i guess i saw mogan
but too bad coz i so bored at BQ

i meet my darling mei xiu
we went to clarke quay RUMOURS
her friend was there and mine too
drink with them awhile den tot of leaving
coz it a techno pub or something
i dun like techno and was boring
seem to be boring the whole day
was thinking what if jie fu hey all
or xiao xiong and damain was there
something may be diff le.
coz i normally go such place wif them only

and noe what, when i was think abt them
i saw someone walking toward me
guess who is the person? it xiao xiong
tat was so funny is jus nice when i tot of them
and hey oso came to RUMOURS nia
mei xiu has to go back to BQ
and my friend leave oso in the end
so i join them coz i dunno what else i wan to do
was moody or bored until i saw them
lucky i saw them lor, haha
coz reali use to go such place wif them le
at least i wont be boring or feel weird at there
anyway jus like normal, damain send me home
he was like a big bro to me man.
funny yet has a good listening ear
reach home le was so tired
got to report to all tat i reach home le
and out of a sudden he text me
a simple morning msg why am i so happy
abit lame dun u think, i dunno what i am thinking

saw sin a few days ago at west mall
i think it should be on wed.
i was with him, meet him up b4 he book in
sin tot he was my current BF.
as may be we look like as if we r couple.
but too bad sin saw wrongly.
he wasn't my BF as i wish he is.
he was my ex bf and i still love him
hopefully i will 4get him soon i guess.

after meeting him i went to work like normal
drink, drank, drunk again.
to me it was normal le.
but i dun why he noe abt it.
i was drinking wif guy customer
and he knew abt it, said me again
but this time i noe everything is diff
can see he given up everything.
isit telling me its time 4 me to give up.
i dun wan think so much
as it make me hard to get to sleep.
i sleep the whole day on thur
den sleep all the way till its time 4 work 4 fri

it fri and its my last day working bah.
i wasn't in a good mood. so i look very sian.
nv drink much actually if not i wun be here typing
i am still awake and its sat morning.
like what i like to do blog abt my past few days
but today its abit diff. i saw him with 2 ger
anyway its just girls again,
as he said b4 his life is full wif girls around
but i can see he dun wanna look at me at all.
wasn't it sad or hurt. wanna ask him if the girl is his new gf
may be if hey are i will be rather happy.
coz which mean i got no chance at all
so i will reali give up as its so suffering
coz everyday i have to force myself to sleep
to reali sleep and stop thinking or missing of him

if i can restart my life i rather
i am someone tat dun fall in love.
someone tat got no feeling.
or someone tat only plays wif ppl feeling.
but all above i am not,
how i wish what sin say is true
but it was jus my dream.
a dream tat i nv wan to wake up.
i wish to dream on but he wakes me up
every single time when i fall back asleep.

wake up le but notice something
i scolded him when i am drunk
in the sms tat i sent him.
he was rather angry
but actually i told myself
dun care so much le
i said sorry as 4 scolding him 4 nth.
wanted to meet him but he nv reply.
so went to work like normal
i guess i nv tell him i am working
anyway this week day i am working
mon, tue, wed and fri
reach work place i got his sms
say tot of meeting me
i tot he was angry wif me
why still will tot of meeting me.
but too bad i end of onli at 2am
by the time everyone is asleep le.
yup. of coz he was sleeping
i called him but no one ans.
so no choice i go home
actually i myself wan to meet him de
i think i so get use to night life.
so i reach home till now still can't sleep.
i think i going to take sleeping pill again
anyway later in the afternoon at 3pm
i am going to NUH to see doc.

what should i say abt mon?
i think i drunk alot tat night
sorry to those tat got disturb by me
i am rather moody and sad.
can i promise myself
tat is my last time crying becoz of him.
alot of ppl tell me i shouldn't cry
but i still cired again at whiskey bar
may be becoz i am so drunk
or becoz xin qing bu hao so drunk easily
anyway i lost $100 tat night.
guess i drop the money bah.
i am having bad luck i guess.
i jus wish my life will turn out better
i reali very xin gu le.
everything turn out to be worst.
i dunno what else i can say.

today i didn't went out at all.
whole day at home sleep.
i dunno what am i thinking now.
kind of headache like tat.
feel abit xin tong why he did those thing
jus becoz a word stress he do all tat.
kind of still cant put down.
i am sad or i cant cry out.
the tear dun wan to come out.
make me so xin gu right now.
haiZ. what can i say he is jus foolish ba.
and i am even more foolish than him.
no wonder my friend say the person i love
is very xin fu de coz i will reali love the person
not only the good side and oso the bad side of them.
think its this make me headache de ma.

happy birthday to jervon!! :P


yday after sin tua.
or i shouldn't say yday but jus now.
i went to bq wif xiao xiong, damain hey all.
we stop at my darling emily work place outside.
saw my tat ex bf at a pub outside.
i tot i ming ming saw him hugging a ger.
but when jus now he text me i ask him
he say he nv hug any ger.
i hope i seh le see wrong but i have drink hw to seh.
its okay de even hw he trying to make me sad.
i wont sad le coz i noe i can get use to it de.
den we went to geylang de PUB to drink.
anyway its i dun wan stay at bq de.
me and damain totally not tired at all.
wanna go else where after geylang.
but too bad in the end nv go anywhere.
coz damain stay near me so he have to send me home.
we took cab from geylang de PUB to jurong west.
went to 651 to eat something den walk home.
anyway it been mths since i last go out wif them.
okay la, still will abit xin qing bu hao but not tat moody le.
hehe. i trying to look at the good side.
why i got so any darling girlfriend
tat is always there 4 me when i am sad.
stay cheerful patricia!! :)

why i deserve this.
deserve to be hurt
deserve to be not loved by anymore
deserve to be always broken hearted
deserve to be cry behide alone
deserve to be said flirt when i am not
deserve to be depress

what else i deserve to be?
wht i cant be deserve to be
loved, happy, not hurt and crying
why my fate is so bad tat i dun wanna
to believe in fate, dun wanna live on.
i understand i am always not what my partners want
not the girls they reali want
not the 1 tat hold their heart
not the 1 tat they miss and love
not as caring as their ex
i am just not a good girlfriend

everytime i fall in love
i will tell myself this time will be diff
this time i will find my love.
this time i will be happy
this time i wont hurt and cry
but again my heart is broken
sometime i wish to ask how many time
my heart can get broken and heal

i will wish to be with the 1 i love
living in a simple life will do
but yet is still so hard to get
yet all i got is jus suffering
why and what did i done wrong
tat it must always do this to me
not once or twice but always.
can i ever deserve to be loved?

what is the problem wif you
i reali dunno and
i dunno how to read a guy mind
you r the one tat asked me
to do this and that
or u r the 1 tat say everything
and is you tat asked me to give up.
force me to give up on you
4get everything and pretent nth happen at all.
am i right or wrong now.

yet why out of a sudden you will say tat
i actually flirt with lots of guys.
what did i done tat make you think this way
who is the person tat i flirt with.
i real dun understand why you say tat.
why r you doing all this to me?
the one i reali love now is you.
i can swear to god tat you r the 1 in my heart
the 1 and only tat i love, but yet who cares.

friend say i am foolish
but i keep telling myself i am not
becoz i believe in you.
what i have done 4 you till now
i dun think you can see it
or rather feel it in the other way of saying
i wish you can reali see my love
or reali let ur own feeling out
i noe you r holding on
as you say you dun dare to love anymore.
but do you noe you can be loved by ppl
no need to love but be loved

i wish you will think and give me
this chance to love you.
i dun believe relationship will last long.
but every moment i spend with you
i can be reali happy, reali reali happy.
you cant see how happy or sad i am.
coz i am alway keeping the feeling inside
act in a diff ways if i am sad
so ppl wont ke lian wo.
coz i no need ke lian, ke lian me 4 wat?

do you reali wan me to give up,
or reali wan me to 4get,
do i, myself got the chance to choose.
i will choose not giving up.
coz i love you as simple as tat!!

what can i do now,
i am losing every single thing in my life.
yet you still force me to give up on you.
i noe the ending has been written le.
i can't change the ending anymore.
but i can feel tat you got this little feeling 4 me.
not jus hao gan as you told me jus now.
but why you wan keep everything to urself.

i noe you keep saying xin fu dun belong to you.
it's not it dun belong to you
but it's you, youself dun wan it.
i said b4 the love is there is jus whether
the person noe how to catch it.
and the love has the same meaning as xin fu.

i dun wan to give up, reali dun wan
why always i am the 1 tat should give up
i should be the 1 to say tat
xin fu forever dun belong to me bah.
i think suffering is what tat is belong to me.
i can't 4get the only day tat you belong to me
the only day we r together as a couple

i reali dun wan to let go but
you lie to me tat after your problem
is settle den we talk abt it but now leh
you keep on saying the same thing to me.
can you think why i dun wan to give up.
can you put yourself in my shoes and
think 4 me deep down from your heart

what i reali wan and reali need.
no one willing to think 4 me.
they all set their mind 4 me.
i seem to be no chance to choose at all.
been through so much till
i dun wan to be in love but

the fate make me in love again and again
hurt again and again isit becoz it wan me to be stronger
but do you noe i will go craay again 1 day
becoz i can't take it anymore.
will the fate stop its game now.

bring me to somewhere tat is belong to me
bring me my love, ppl alway dun be rush.
must wait de cannot be rush de.
but do you noe how long i have been waiting.
i rather dun love anymore
than see my loved one walk away from me
leave me behide all alone.

the protection feeling tat i alway want.
believe or not whenever i was with him
i can feel the feeling. i not joking
but its true tat without i can reali feel i am nothing.
you may say i am far too fast to say this.
to me my last relationship was last yr sept
the only relationship tat i will nv 4get.
its let me noe many thing.
like what the feeling of dead
those shen bu ru shi de felling.
after tat relationship i noe tat
i wont wan to love anymore.
love as in love tat deep down to my heart.
becoz of tat i suffer alot so kind of dun dare.

i notice there is still a few tat i reali willing to love
i love him and willing to be there in all ways.
i want to be there help him, over come everything.
i wish can listen to his voice.
chat with him like wat i always do.
wanna meet him up but dunno he wanna meet me ma.
hai. jus hope everything will goes fine.



this is the reason i will love a ger
than a guy coz at least the ger
wont hurts me in anyway
but the guy will and
its hurt deep into the heart
i tot i am okay le but i am not okay
rather ppl think i am weird
rather to love her den a him
it make me worst i wont love
any guy anymore coz guy sux.
the hurts tat he given and given by him
i wont hate him tat it
love cannot be force, so up to them.

this was another dream tat i had today.
was i reali drunk till i dunno what i am doing
no i am not tat drunk yet. i dun wish to go home
coz my mum keep on scolding. scold this & tat
i went to work like normal. nv drink at work place.
went to else where to drink with my darling sharon and more
but i reali still alright man. went to batok to eat.
but you noe de i dun eat breakfast.
as i dun wish to go home and other want to rest
2 of them went home, only left me and him.
it a him man, am i wrong or wat.
went to his house slack.
we 2 only slack and nth else.
told him i can feel the protection feeling
tat i alway wan and wish to have.
dunno why we got together but he was scare tat
his bro will angry wif him tat y he dun dare.
after i show him i reali like him and
think he can be the right one.
we are together but it jus less than 1 day de thing
he say he dun wan me le, coz bro is more impoartant
but why wan become like this, throw me away
do he unerstand he is so selfish tat he willing to
hurt me than hurting himself or his friend.
and wan me to understand him when i was the 1 tat is hurts
i got hurts again and again till i kind of wish to die
dun live anymore in this world will be better
i can't say i love him but i do abit like him
noe what he given up on me
i do noe tat i am nothing at all
we break up on the day when we got together.
the same day i got no time to think
and he saying finish all the thing
i told him may be i'm willing to wait
wait 4 him to settle his problem
unless he dun wan me anymore.
i told him if the guy is this real bro
wont becoz of a ger dun wan bro de
and if the guy reali love the ger
he wil respect the ger and
wont stop her from choose of partner
and wan her to be happy better than sad

went to work like normal.
but seriously i going to quit this job soon.
the place i mean. finding new job.
a place there is better paid bah.
willing to work more day but
my current job nv give me tat chance
it wasted my 2week holiday as far as i noe.
haiZ. i wish i quit earlier den
the 2 week wont jus wasted like tat.
hai. too late to say tat already.

but the only thing tat i will miss is
my darling lopez and gladys
and the funny yong xiang
but too bad some ppl go NS le.
hehe. fang gong but pei the 2 ladys
drink, chat and sing song
drink again, but too bad nv drunk
stay till 4plus den went over
to shebang to meet mei xiu
jus nice alex was there too.
anyway thank alex 4 the drink.

hehe. mei xiu finnally fang gong
went to BK eating house sit down
chat and wait 4 time to past.
its 6plus and took cab wif her
back to our house. drop her 1st
den it my turn, reach home.
damn tired, bath le jiu sleep le.

heard from someone my ah kor
met a car accident but seriously
i dunno is it true anot.
hope he is fine only
but if it isn't true den the person
tat play this kind of joke should
be fucking bo liao and stupid.

anyway i today went to IMM wif dad.
haha. nth much la jus walk around only.
all the thing tat i brought is dad make the payment de.
it wasn't been like this when dad and me go out.
hehe. went to buy some chip 4 tml.
as me and yue ting r going tanning.
abit scare to become dark dark.
coz it hard 4 me to get back to fair skin after tanning.
but okay la once awhile it still okay.
my dad and me had dinner at subway.
daddy hardly will pei me eat fast food de.
this is oso once awhile bah. haha.
reach home abt 9plus chat wif yue ting.
taling abt wat to bring tml.
anyway my darling sharon join us 4 tml.
she love to go sentosa too.
meet both at 9.30 the latest.
hope i will enjoy myself tml like today.
hehe. listening to song.
ni hen ai ta and xu yao ni de ai
all it by (F.I.R) i love this 2 song..

no one is in the blame
so no SORRY is needed.
hoping everything will be fine.
jus back to normal will do.
as i dun wish to hear u saying sorry.
coz i believe the blame wasn't on us.
it's should be on the life and fate.
so we shouldn't keep on saying sorry
to each other when we nv do anything wrong at all.
i jus MISS you alot tat all.

yeah. ABSOLUT VODKA again
as tat time my buddy meixiu
pass me her bottle of ABSOLUT VODKA.
i drink with orange juice like normal.
but i oso drink it wif F&N zappel
i kind of use to drinking le.

anyway i didn't go to club today
as i slept till 7plus den wake up.
nv reali feel like eating.
may be coz afternoon ate le.
alot asked me to go today
but i did wan to go as the place wasn't nice 4 clubbing.
tml ladys nite will i be going club.
i must see how 1st coz i dunno.
any thurs is sun tan wif yue ting.
fri and sat workig again.
nxt tue go reborn my hair and MOS of coz.
buy ticket from me and lets club tgt.

i was just turning off my hp while i was sleeping.
didn't notice so much thing will happen again.
i noe back to dunno when i did asked u to link me.
but u seem tonot blogging so i tot u wun come and read my blog.
and jus not long ago u texted me tat u jus read my blog.
i noe thing wasn't right le. i wrote all this on there in my blog.
not becoz i wan to tell the whole world abt this.
but jus some place 4 me to relax and said out to.
coz i dun wan to share much wif friend as its non of their business.
but now i am jus scared tat u did saw everything and is it over 4 me le.
i think so bah. i am kind of hate myself alot.
didn't wan to disturb ppl life coz i noe my life it's already so miserable.
anyway dun think so much and dun say sorry when u isn't in the wrong.
i should be the 1 to say SORRY my dear 4 disturbing u so much.

i dunno why i tot of online.
if i dun online everything will be the same.
but after i on my computer i knew something.
something tat i'd rather i nv knew at all.

i'd rather be in my dreams.
my sweet sweet dream as it make me happy.
den make me cry, i tot i wun cry like last nite.
but i did it again, this afternoon
i was still damn fucking happy or alright.

but after i on my laptop and went online.
everything seem to be totally diff again.
it seem to be very hard to get over it.
i am trying my best but i can't.
actually in the 1st place i noe it wont happen.

but i am putting all the fake hope together.
and it bring me to there.
hopeless and giving up eveything.
drinking every now and den.

but i just wish tat she will understand my feeling.
and at least she did had a little feeling 4 me b4.
but i not i may be day dreaming after i saw things.
i am using drinking to stop myself from thinking.
but i guess it wont stop it 4 long.

went to meet gladys at lakeside MRT platform.
go to boat quay just to take pay.
wait 4 boss from 9plus till 12plus.
anyway we went to amder21 to drink.
i drink quite alot till i damn high.
i ask gladys to go back whiskey
as i noe i can't drink much le.
i will sure seh is i dun stop myself.

went back to whiskay wait and wait.
till i finish my chicken wing.
boss still haven come, anyway when hey came.
me and gladys took pay le jiu leave le.
gladys friend came to fetch us.
thank anyway coz it save our money than taking cab.

jus wanna tell all those tat read my blog
thank 4 leaving tag which meaningful
as some tags was disturbing thing to others blogs
thank alot coz i noe u will say becoz u care.
even u seem to be stranger to me.

anyway if things is alway agains ur way
and everthing seem to be getting worst
then ur living will be even more meaningless
4 the truth i do think tat living in this world
is truly meaningless.

and i did ever give up my life.
or should i say i have die once.
but something u may be dun believe in
bring my life back to this world.
tat a reason tat i'm now here.
dun wish to say more as it was the past

ever since this yr start nth bring me a real smile.
i didn't really feel happy at all
i tot it was the 2nd worst yr after
2006 as tat yr i went in NUH 4
6month or more than tat.
and got depress becoz of tat.

sometime i was think why didn't i die
what make me to live on when i no hopes.
everytime i tell myself if it make me so sad
why not try giving up at least i wun be unhappy.
but it still happen the same like b4.
how many time i given up it still happen
the same way like b4, like it nv change.
but jus hurting me over and over again.

i reach home bath and lie on my bed.
cry all the way from 5plus till 7plus den fell asleep.
i cry becoz i know i am always the one tat is in wrong.
in wrong as in my feeling, my love, my tears.
i love her but i dun think she noe it.
i noe its kind of crazy to normal ppl.
but put urself in my shoes.
after all the fake or wat relatinship.
will you still believe tat there is a thing named TRUE LOVE.
yup. sometime ur feeling is true
but the other person may not be the same.

finally i accepted the truth tat i'm not the same anymore.
but again i think i am wrong, even i'm hoping i'm correct.
holding on to her hand wasn't a easy thing tat i can do.
i am getting everything to goes as per normal.
but i am scared tat if i getting thing goes like tat.
i am jus like getting go of every single thing.
finally i notice she was so important to me.
but i gotta loss every thing with no ending
of coz there wasn't any ending coz it nv started at all in 1st place.

went to meet a friend a movie @ the cathay.
we watch The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian.
it a nice movie as i had watch part 1 and this should be part 2.
after movie we went to boat quay to drink wif friend.
wanna ask me why the way i am drinking non stop.
i will give all a ans soon.

anyway we went to whiskey bar.
my work place to drink den
went over to shebang to find my friend.
as she was working,
drink tiger beer den gotta to other place
went to east coast de mac upstair de pub.
drink martell and beer again.


den a friend sent me home.
i went over to mei xiu house.
chat wif her till 5plus.
we talk abt those sad thing
she and her sis pei me walk home.

been 1 whole day i did msg
but no reply. i miss her.
dont noe what happen nia.
isit i am too disturbing
till she dun wan reply.
i dunno what shall i do.
i am going to work soon.
but i am kind of moody.
coz of what i dunno.
b4 i go to work i already drink @ home le
drink ABSOLUT VODKA.
will i be drunk later i dunno.
jus feel like drinking.
going off 4 work.
as staying at home oso alone.
felt kind of lonely suddenlly.

i did saw you walking into my pub.
when i was still working.
but i was kinda sad to see you with her.
i noe she is your ex gf.
tat the reason i was sad.
i guess the feeling is there 4 you.
but i dunno whether you can feel it.

actually i want ask u pei me go my house.
as i hate being alone at home but
knowing u should be going home wif her.
so i didn't disturb you much.

and becoz she was there i not dare to talk to u.
i dun wish to pull you away while you r with her.
tat the reason why i give you a call
and ask you come out of raining bar.
pei me go find a friend 4 awhile.
i love the every single sec you r by my side.
only you and me no one else.

i feel like hug you, hold you.
but coz you r with her i dun wan to do tat.
my dear can you feel my love for you.
all the while i am waiting.
waiting to noe you more.
understand you more.
be there 4 you if you need a person.

LOVE is there is just whether
you noe how to catch it.
but i will nv let my love 4 you
fade away coz i'm waiting 4 you
to catch my love and my heart.
willing to give up everything jus 4 you.
LOVE YOU

ended work at 2am.
den went over to raining bar.
to look 4 darling sharon.
can see she very sian at there.
in the end she change place to double C.
i was abit busy walking here and there.
so didn't get the chance to pei her.

den mango and friend all came down.
at bardot drinking i oso nv got
the chance to drink much wif him.
plus cindy at martin.
i went to alot of pub to find friend.
got high but not yet drunk.
i wish i can drink till drunk.
but i didn't i still rather seh till dunno what happen
than see it all in my own eyes.
was abit sad yday bah.

chat wif carmen yday till 3am.
while chatting i told her i wanna go Kbox.
den she oso feel like going.
so we plan to go in the morning.
she ask her friend go along.
actually wanna go Lot1 de kbox.
but close down already or wat.
so change place we go jurong east de.
was a meaningful day 4 my start of holiday.
at least i nv slack at home whole day.

anyway we took photo but i nv make up.
look so ugly and like half dead.
went home to rest awhile after kbox.
coz tonight i still have to work.
i reali wish to see you tonight.
wish to hug you but i dun think i dare
i miss you alot.

(me and yue ting de heart heart)

(best friend foever)

St James Power House (3 june 08)

my EMO buddy zhixiong ?_?

mE and Carmen

mE and emily

mE in SCH

EMO de ME!!

(ALL TTHE PAST)

i am wondering what should i do.
as i slept too much in the afternoon
till at night i can't sleep. lame rite.
it okay 4 me coz there isn't any sch tml.
i miss the person and the voice.

i am so funny tat i can even dream
untill the person i miss.
it was a good dream i guess.
told u it nv happen in real life.
but it happen in my dream.
i love my dream.
how i wish i can dream on 4ever.

wanted to chat wif you
but wasn't dare to call you.
and when you called me.
i didn'r notice my hp was ringing.
i miss the chance to chat wif you.
i noe it late le, you should sleep
as you got sch the nxt day.
but i still miss you alot.
i love you much more than wat you tot of. :)



party ended @ 2.45am.
took cab wif louis, jo and carmen
to where u guess. went back to jurong.
slacked till 6am den go home bath.
carmen & my darling jo pei wo take train to sch.
as i got exam and hey wanna go home.

finish all my exam, now its holiday le.
went home after exam den i slp all the way.
till gladys, joelle, cindy, mango anf kenny
msg me i oso dunno. guess i am a pig.
mango is back from thailand today.
he brought something 4 me guess wat
anyway thank tat u go holiday oso remember me
this new friend of yours. haha.
actually wanted to go ladies nite de.
but too tired le this wk, may be nxt wk ba.

went to st james power house yday.
it wasn't a good party.
coz my buddy timcus nv go.
when carmen, my loves joleen and me
decided to go in to dance while
my other 2 buddy gone MIA in the club.
the stupid zhixiong and louis.

a group of guys or i should say idiots
surrounded us and hey r reali fuck up man.
hey pushed me, i was most going to fall.
i was damn fucking angry becoz nv ones in a club
i saw this kind of guys. so ungentlemanly.
if i was with my ah kor hey all
i think we already pick fight le.

i was fucking buay tahan them le.
i turn back and looked at the guys
rather to say them musclar,
i will say them fucking fat.
he pushed me again and again.
i push him back a few times.
told him off that it enough already.

but anyway i think carmen and my darling jo
was scared tat i will fight wif the guys or *gays*
i dare if hey r dare too. but i dun think hey dare anyway.
it spoilt my clubbing mood, tat the reason it wasn't fun.
saw joelle de buddy emily, i think so.
but too bad joelle nv go yday.
i was rather boring and miss her alots.

anyway it was 1st time in a club
i saw tat kind of guys or gays
and 1st time in club tat the last song
was so er xin, i think tat last song and dj sux.

i was rather very happy today.
even i wasn't feeling well.
i so happy to see tat msg.
becoz i was wishing tat
you will give me a msg.
and you did, my wish came true.

knowing you may be going down tml.
i was even more happy.
i wish you will go st james.
but i'll go to the place tat you going.
coz i wanna see you.
guess the music wasn't most important.
is the person beside on tat day
is the most important.

i went 4 HFC exam today.
woke up at 5am.
but actually nv slp much.
study awhile den prepare 4 sch.
need to reach sch latest by 8.15am.
exam started at 8.30.
it wasn't a very hard paper.
may be because i got study.

after exam went to tampines.
ate KFC den took bus wif emily hey all.
but out of a sudden i felt giddy.
i drop down at bedok took train home.
but i feel like vomit out all those thing tat i ate.
and i did reali vomit and felt so weird.
i reach home and ate my medicine.
now i am on my bed resting.
i am such a weak person.
always sick and sick.

i am i wont be eating anymore 4 tonighr.
dont feel like eating. haiZ.

Please keep this simple
You respect here , no trouble , PEACE:D

♥Listen to the beat , I swear you fall in love with the music .

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

♥  

  basically i just LOVE yOu!!!
 

patricia CHONG pei wEn :p
Working now
14th September 1990
In the RELATIONSHIP
 turning to 20
 
I am
20% Talkative, 10% Evil,
10% Funny, 60% Emo.

 Good health
Wonderful Boyfriend
Thailand Trip with BF
I Phone
Tiffany & Co. RING
Gucci Medium Messenger Bag 
Gucci TOFU Bag 
COACH Signature Top Handle Pouch
LVNeverFULL
Lacoste Polo Shirt
bebe Jacket
Naraya Bags
New Bags
Genting Trip with BF
Waxing tools
start to save more money
earn more money
clubbing wif gf and darling
DKNY Perfume
 more clothes
 more heels
 more handbags
 more dress
sunflower
birthday present
birthday cake
wonderful 20th birthday wif my bf & darling
 

♥Really WISH to

I really wish to start my life all over again!!
people might think that i am CRAZY.
but I really wish to make my everyday happy.
Life are so short, you'll never know what's next.

So why not make everyday useful.
make everyday happy.
and LOVE yourself 1st
before you talk about others
nothing else is more important than yourself
SO LOVE YOURSELF!!

♥my Darling

 
Atika
Bao Bao
Carmen
Cynthia
Emily
Fioan
Gladys
Joelle
Joleen
Kai Lin
Kenny
Kevloi
Li Zhen
Mingshuang
Pearl
Pei Khim
Stephy
Y1nny

♥LongAgo

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♥Thankyous

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