♥Saturday, May 31, 2008
i toss and turn on my bed.
all i imagined was to be with you.
it is something that will never happen.
but i knew it will happen in my dream.
so i rather spend my 24hrs in my dream.
dreaming of you, your everything.
i finally notice it's truth tat i in love wif u.
someone tat i dun reali understand.
i wish to understand u more.
but i wasn't dare to ask or talk more to u.
i'm afraid tat u wun reply or ans me.
i'm worry tat my dream will all gone.
i'm afraid tat i'll lose everything in my own hand.
i'm jus girl tat is always wondering but not dare to do.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
i went to work yday.
drink beer at 1st.
3am le, i finally fang gong le.
went to 6am find emily.
sit down to chat wif her and nana.
they was talking abt LOVE.
suddenly i notice something
i wasn't the same as them anymore.
i dun care abt those thing anymore.
may be tat kind of LOVE,
wasn't what i want anymore.
i went to meet mango and his friend.
we went to nos to drink.
we drink ABSOLUT VODKA.
we abt to finish it le.
but too bad it 6am le,
i was abit drank, abit only.
how i wish to drink till drank again.
reach home bath and went to bed.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, May 30, 2008
here i stand tonight
and all i want
is you
you're far away
how can i
hold you now
but in my heart
a memory away
take me anywhere
but here
i promised to be yours forever
and here's where i wait
oh how i wish
i counld be there with you
and feel you holding me tight
a memory of what we used to do
before this night
though far apart
i remember you
just a memory away
come back to me
i am still waiting
here alone
oh come for me now
for you keep
all my heart
and i still love you in every way
i'm waiting now
for something which won't come
please take me anywhere but here
and in my heart
a memory away
and i still wait here
where are you now?
do you think of me?
plaese take me anywhere but here
you are only a memory away
and i still wait for you here....
(years ago i posted this in my old blog)
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, May 29, 2008
i jus wan to keep life simple.
tat wat i reali all i want.
even i did reali keep thinking of u.
i dun wish to make each other life worst.
i dun wan to see u stress.
i rather i be the 1 to be stress.
simple life is what i wish 4.
but it nv came true at all.
it has became worst.
worst in the way tat i am scare.
scare to lost any thing.
scare i can nv replace her.
replace the her in ur heart.
i LOVE you even more than u think.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
i went to far east meet yue ting.
yup. of coz shopping again.
at town den went to bugis.
after bugis went to city hall area.
brought a few thing at bugis.
a top, a pair of shoes.
the else its at other place.
a ring and more.
shop shop shop.
anyway i ate porridge again.
so sian. i got to work sia.
on fri and sat.
got to cancel all my plan.
anyway tml i will go sch.
den go home rest den go work.
both day got at 10pm to 3am.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
NEXT PARTY WILL BE
on 17th JUNE Vaunt 3
@
Door opens at 7.30pm :D
You just have to pay $17 for 3parties !
Don’t understand ? It means that we’re holding
another 2 FREE parties if you’re getting your tickets to Vaunt3 from
me ! :D
“Dare to Wear” Party@ButterFactory on 3rdJune
&on th 10thJune, a hush hush venue ; to be
revealed at a later date .
So stay tune for more ! :D
book ur ticket from me now.
lets party tgt on tat day.
be my dance parner 4 tat night.
FOR TICKETS RESERVATIONS AND / OR
INTERESTED TICKET DISTRIBUTORS ;
Contact: PATRICIA
HP : 90226790
HOTMAIL : xiaowen8032@hotmail.com
|
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Wednesday, May 28, 2008
i noe it Weird to other,
ppl will think i am crazy
i already thought of this a few yr back
but i nv did it at all
tat days when u hold on the my hand
i didn't let go,
suddenly i felt so warm inside my heart.
your that hand touch my heart.
but i wun force u to be by my side.
i let u choose even the one wun be me.
it oso okie with me de.
no one will understand this feeling
so i rather handle this by myself.
aLONE wasn't a good feeling.
coz i felt so lonely and
tot i was abt to go crazy.
i finally dare to tell my best friend abt this
i finally share with someone.
scare she wun understand but she didn't
thank alots, thank 4 chatting wif me.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
wake up at 11am, kind of late today.
coz as i have say i am not going to sch today.
tml oso not going to sch, will be going bugis.
shopping? i dunno. but i wanna jus walk around.
will meet up yue ting if nth hppen last min.
hehe. my mum keep on ask me to eat.
i told her, i am not hungry at all.
will eat at nite then. she say cannot.
haha. i say i will eat things once i am hungry.
she got nth better to say so nv care le.
it boring at home but what to do.
it boring in sch too.
it seem to be no one understanding me?
yeah, i think no one noe hw i feel.
at least i am relax at home.
will start study later.
but there s somethin in my mind.
thinking and missing.
worry what did i do wrong.
but everything is diff every single sec.
i kind of dun wish to care le.
anyway i off my hp le.
now is 2pm.
it will be off till wat time i dunno.
28 may 08, 2.00pm
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
i went to sch like noraml.
wsn't in a good mood.
hai. i was like in sch alone.
i plan not to go school tml and thur.
no one understand me.
so i dun wan to care abt other le.
i choose to be like this and i will nv regret.
i miss you. believe or not i nv had this feeling b4.
dun say much le. jus wish everything will be fine.
not going to sch so dunno what to do.
wanna go tampines awhile or
stay at jurong the whole day.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Tuesday, May 27, 2008
jealous and sad this is what i am feeling.
why do every 1 got a chance to choose.
but i am like no choice.
ppl had choose 4 me.
jealous tat i couldn't choose 4 myself.
why does this always happen to me.
can anyone tell me WHY.
i can't sleep at all.
what should i do?????
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
life is meaninglss when thing
haven even started it ended.
and this is my life.
Dunno since when all the thing around me
is so meaningless, i tot i reali like the truth.
but as time goes by i knew tat it becoz of all the truth
tat make life worst.
i tot knowing the truth
will it least make me give up
but now i think i rather dunno anything.
if the thing will nv turn out to be good.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
tougue it's kinda swollen today.
as it was the 1st or 2nd day.
but not painful, only abit hurt.
afraid tat it will have pas on the tougue
touch wood better dun have.
nv eat much today only.
only eaten porridge.
i feel a little sick like fever.
dun reali care now.
i start to feel sad after looking at the msg
it abit hurt coz i feel i got no chance to choose.
and she set her mind 4 me.
can u let me choose. b4 saying which way i should be going.
hope u understand what i reali think.
feeling sad now. think i even can't sleep den jus now.
hai. what should i do to make u think i am willing to change jus 4 u.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Monday, May 26, 2008
went out wif yue ting.
coz she said she wanna go penisula
to pierce her tongue, so i pei her.
but in the end, coz she was afraid.
she asked me to pierce tgt.
and here's goes my tongue.
yup. i pierced my tongue.
coz she was scare so i goes 1st.
i tot it will be pain but end its not at all.
i'm felt hungry as i only eat a meal
and it was like my breakfast if i'm not wrong.
coz my tongue is pireced i dun feel like eating.
on diet isit. ya, i am coz i hate ppl saying me fat all the time.
i wasn't fat b4 i ate tat medicine but i became fat after taking it.
what to do, i am sick so in order to get well.
i have to take even i do noe what will happen.
it take month 4 the last time i got silm back.
sad thing is i am sick and i AM FAT again!!
now i am cutting down weight.
anyway went over to ps
to meet joelle and her friend.
coz its my idea of watching movie.
so we went to watch movie at ps.
watch Made Of Honour.
it was touching And romantic
there is 1 part tat was so touching
tat all most make me wanna cry
but joelle was so sweet,
asked me am i going to cry
if i nv heard wrongly.
Chill And Slack till 11pm
went to take train home
as yue ting taking train
am i crazy or wat.
i didn't took train all the way 2 boonlay
i stop at queentown and took cab.
jus becoz i suddenly wanna be ALONE
jus ALONE dun talk abt the driver.
coz at tat sec i was thinking of thing.
till i forgotten tat is another person
who was the driver itself.
reach home bath and wanna sleep
but my brain is kept on
thinking of something else.
so i am here to update my blog.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Saturday, May 24, 2008
somtime thing reali change a person mind.
thing that she nv dare to think.
becoz she believe nth will ever so do worst.
but what thing become bad to worst.
she notice it time to change her mind.
everytime i think of R/S.
i feel such a bad feeling.
is jus as if i dun wan to believe in it anymore.
it hurt alot by all means.
being hurt over and over again.
i thhink i have given up.
given up everything.
believe anot i have 30 over R/S
and not even 1 past for more than 2mths.
so u think i will still willing to try
what most of the time it turn out worst.
i reali start to feel i will nv believe in guys.
becoz of all the hurt hey given me as a gift.
to me it a lesson and a gift.
to see the true colour of them after such a long time.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
been feeling giddy for days. since tue if i am not wrong tll now.so this week went to sch like as if nv go. funny rite. hehe. but today its fri le. i am going to work tonight. hope it wun be as giddy as in the morning. i am like going to sick but dun wan sick like tat. the feeling wasn't good. i rather sick. anyway wishing today he wont be at my pub to drink. saw him 2days le. so scare to see him today. coz i dun wan let ppl noe i work there. i wish he dun come. there is so many pub in boat quay. y dun he go other pub. dun come my pub can le. hehe. enjoy working. love working. but i most love is pay day. which is today. hehe. i am going down to get pay hope my boss will give us b4 we dismiss from work. hehe. going to rest awhile b4 i go work. and last but not least i wish my ah ma will get well soon. dun wish her to be sick. it oso 4 my mum. coz she went back malaysia to takecare of my ah ma.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, May 22, 2008
3rd of june 2008
ST JAMES POWER HOUSE
16 and aBv party
Event: Kakumei
Theme : Tokyo Couture
(NIGHT LIFE LOVER)
dont you start to feel like party!!
DJ Lineup
DJ Neboet - 9pm - 130am
DJ Andrew T - 130am – late
FASTER GET YOURS NOW!!
VIBE EXCLUSIVE CARD: $26sgd
Vibe card is a exclusive card which allows entry into the 3 events held by Vible
in the month of JUNE 2008 we have
Kakumei @ St James Power House
????? @ ??????
Final Showdown @ ZOUK
St James Powerhouse door tickets for single event: $20sgd
ZOUK door tickets for single event: $20sgd
wHAT YOU waiting 4??
the CARD are LIMITED so GET IT FROM ME NOW!!
LOVE PARTY AND ENJOY LOUD MUSIC!! *(ME TOO)*
so party with me now!!
Contact: PATRICIA
HP : 90226790
HOTMAIL : xiaowen8032@hotmil.com
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
today i nv go sch nia. feeling giddy and sick. so nv go sch. and notice no on care at all. mean i m kind of a extra oso. 4get it. i dun reali care. my ah ma oso sick and she is now in hospital in malaysia. hoping everything is fine. anyway i went to see doctor. got MC 4 today. jus wish i will be better to be able to go work on fri tat all. miss working. i think i reali start to love working at there le. hehe. but i promise i will not drink so much de. hehe. it my promise to all my friend. haha.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
Happy BIRTHDAY to JOELLE !! :)
hope you will enjoy urself today.
may all ur wishes come true!!
come down and find me if u free. k?
den i can help u celebrate ur bday.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Tuesday, May 20, 2008
been working 4 very long nia. think abt 1 month le lo. hehe. it sometime boring but lucky i get to noe lopez, gladys and yong xiang. it reali happyto work wif them. but i think i am rather a little moody nowaday tat y i am drinking and drinking. but i am happy with my life now. as long as no one gonna come and make my life worst jiu hao le. jus wanna enjoy and relax. today went to sch but i only go for 2 lesson. hehe. coz i am damn giddy. if i plan not to go i wun even go to sch. u must noe i stay jurong lei if i reali dun wan to go den i dun go till simei ite
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Wednesday, May 07, 2008
went to see doctor in the afternoon. i can't believe tat the doctor dare to say he wan do surger on my face. i of coz say i dun wan la. it face lei. not hand, leg, body or neck. face is the most important place 4 lady lei. hope it heal itself la. dun make my life hard. anyway today i nv go sch, tml actually oso MC. hehe. so happy. but i will go sch tml 4 test. hehe.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Sunday, May 04, 2008
it was reali a bad week 4 me. i reali think i am giving up soon. coz i can see he is not wanting to contact me and meet me. i can feel tat there is no love from him to me. am i thinking too much. i dun noe. but what i can say is i 4ever so stupid in love. i reali love him. but 1day i dun even got a msg from him at all. only if i msg him den may be he will reply. is may be not 4 sure he will reply. like today i nv msg him so he nv msg me at all. not even a msg. dun even need to say abt a call. i hope his leg faster heal. all my best wishes 4 him. tat all le. i give up le i now jus trying hard to control myself not to disturb him. 4get him. hope i can do it. den wun be upset. but i am drinking this 2 night while working. becoz i am reali upset and feeling moody. he i now himself. not my *lao gong* anymore. and i noe i am not his *laopo* anymore too. haiZ. i dun wan to get in love anymore le. dun make me upset le. i going to can't take it le. please if u nv going to love me den dun tell me all those shit. and i will reali say a big thank you to you. takecare den.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
