♥Thursday, July 31, 2008
it been a long time since i last update.
dun reali noe wat to say
so didn't wanted to post anything.
when reali disappointed wif wat she had done
so i can do nth else but 4get about it.
reali got nth to say coz word tat i have said
to her is nth but jus right ear in, left ear outso wat 4 i said so much.
leaving behide is a chance 4 ppl to comment.
do i regret? if i say NO i am jus another liar
YES, i regret 4 trusting her,
letting her to make use of me,
or MAY BE backstab or making fun of me behide
i even regret knowing her in the 1st place.
rather i have no friend than this ending
people dun ever think there is
this thing call FRIEND FOREVER.
may be it do have on some other people
if hey reali are people tat u can trust
coz hey NV talk bad abt u at the back,
NV try to make use of u jus becoz hey got no friend,
NV say thing to make other dislike u
coz in the bottom of their heart hey dislike u too.
but i dun see all this on her, all i see is jus opp. .
thank alot 4 being my fake friend
i ever try to believe u r reali a friend tat can be trust.
and i reali believe u r so i trustED u.
but after all this i got nth but disappointment.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Monday, July 07, 2008
hmm. should be damn happy de ba
my baobei daddy brought me
back the hp tat i lost few month ago
nokia 5310, the hp not very gd
but i reali like it coz it the 1st hp
my daddy said he like tat model
but i lost it few month ago
hmm. my dAddy jiu shi so gd le
he always buy me whatever i want
thank you DADDY!! :P
reach home after meeting him
should be sleeping de
but as i said i can't sleep at all
li yun sms me ask me wanna go rounding
u noe de bah, i hardly go rounding on bike
but today reali diff my mood will so worst
till i go rounding wif li yun and friend.
if my er jie noe i will got scold bah
coz the bike rider goes quite fast in speed
i got no feeling no scare or anything at all
coz the moody cover every other feeling le
got few last time i like b4 de ppl
contact me back, why hey can't be there when i need them
now tat i totally 4get and dun like them le
den contact me isn't it too late le.
i dunno what to say la. make me happy if u can
i will reali say a big THANK YOU to you!!
anyway now its 7/7/08 morning 5am
can see i reali nv sleep at all bah. haiZ
later going to prepare 4 sch le.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
what else i can said?
i noe it all diff le.
meet him up notice 1 thing
he dun even dare to tell ppl i am his ex
it okay de, but do u noe the hurt i feel
when i noe tat ma, i dun think u understand
its reali not easy to give up
when u had fall too deep in
went to watch movie tgt,
we watched WANTED @ west mall
den walk back to his house there
after going 7-11 i took cab home
wanted to hug him but i dare not
not i give up le but i am scare
scare tat he will push me away
can feel something is diff le
wish he can be back to me
i noe the other its reali a short relationship
we r tgt not more than a day nia
what the fuck is this yet why i am so hurt
am i crazy or wat, can this god ans my qns
can fate bring me a better love?
why am i the 1 tat is being hurt by other
can i give up soon, coz 1 day i can't stand the pain de
there is alway a day tat i am so weak to handle thing
let me give up, let me 4get him and 4get how to love
4get how to fall in love, 4get what is love hao ma
do anyone ever noe the pain he brought to me
its the worst pain i ever had b4
nv try b4 such pain but yet he given me the chance
everyone is in deep sleep, of coz he is oso
but me i can't sleep at all.
coz of the hurt and pain tat makes me can't sleep
not i dun wan be try so many time le
can't fall asleep jiu shi can't. haiZ
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Sunday, July 06, 2008
Happy Birthday to Shawn !! :)Happy Birthday to Yong Xiang !! :Pactually went down boat quay becoz his bday
but noe tat his 3 ex gf is there
i didn't wanted to join him
coz i dun wan to be the 4th at there
tat make him unhappy on his bday
coz i noe if i look like a extra there
i will be damn moody de lor
meet xiao xiong, damain, simon 1st
at rab bar i think so ba
drink but at 1st dun wanna drink
coz i noe moody will drunk easily de
but dunno why i noe hey will cheer me up
reali hey did cheer me up
but too bad hey can't stay till too late
coz today hey got wedding dinner
hey went home at 1plus
i went to whiskey bar but i saw the bday boi
dun wanna disturb him i went to whiskey
didn't know tat its oso yong xiang bday
haha. bday boi so many ah
took a cab to another place
went to find mango to take money
den took the same cab back boat quay
take over jazz to work coz she drink alot le
work till damn angry and tired
so no choice i 5am jiu leave le
coz i go down becoz of shawn de
even i dun wanna join him
i oso dun wanna stay at whiskey
called shawn come out of raining
saw him so drunk le and wif his ex gf
dun reali wanna disturb him
but was so worry nia
his friend told me tat his ex will send him home
but actually i wanna send him home de
he sit at raining bar de sofa and cant wake up le
so drunk till i dun think he can go home by himself
anyway i waited 4 him to take a cab
see him on a cab le so i oso took a cab home alone
wanna go find a friend but in the end
i think better not coz i dun wan to have any misunderstanding
think will meet him up later
coz yday he so drunk i dun wanna pass him the money
scare tat he will lost or drop the money
i reali cant find the money again le
so i keep it, think later den pass him
hope he faster wake up la. haiZ
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
its a friday yday :)
went to sch to take some prize
den went home to change.
wanted to meet him but too bad
he only come out awhle.
dun think got the time to meet
even meet le only say hi and bye only
den he have to go back camp le
so i nv meet him. i was moody
when to work like normal
but 1 thing diff is i took cab to work
i am so moody tat i dun even noe wat i wanna eat
saw some customer tat i noe
i haven start work so can sit down pei her
play game and drink wif her
anyway i drink alot nia
started work at 12am
hmm i cant stand 1 person
reali can't stand anymore
i walk out of whiskey
angry till i started crying
wanna find someone to share
but i dun think ppl unertstand the feeling
my lady boss asked why i cried
i told her every single thing
of coz i told her i reali can't stand it le
den cried de, work wif ppls
but sometime like i working alone
like kind of kanna bully
what a work place tat like hell to me
ever since lopez, gladys & yong xiang
not there i work till so unhappy
saw joelle friend emily i think
chat wif her till i 4get i cross over the road
becoz i was looking 4 friend
he waitedand waited till so long
tat he went home,
anyway i went to home alone oso
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, July 04, 2008
my mummy should be back to singapore
to work today but she wasn't back
coz my grandmother was feeling unwell again
can the thing change, let me be the 1 in hospital
to suffer the pain 4 her coz i am reali xin tong
i rather i am the 1 tat has to be hospital
in the past when i am in hospital
all the ppl was worry 4 me and
came out to singapore to see me
care 4 me and sayang me
now my ah ma was in hospital
we all are reali worry becoz
she is so old le, reali dun wanna see her
suffer those pain and see her so weak
i reali wish from the bottom of my heart
tat my ah ma will get well soon
recover and go back home
dun wan her to stay at there
hope she will remember what i said
eat well, dun think so much
recover and if i can i will go back to see her
i say it i mean it, i will go back once i am free
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
yday i totally nv sleep at all.
i went back to malaysia to see my ah ma
she was in the hospital nia.
she look so weak and her hand is all blue-black
i was so xin tong to see her like this.
how i wish i am the one to suffer the pain
and not her coz she is so old le
dun wanna see her like this
when i reach the ward
saw my ah ma open her eyes big big to look at me
and she smile to me, i can understand and feel
how happy she is when she saw me.
even i am reali tired and giddy yday
but i noe as long as she is happy
nothing matter anymore.
remember when i was a children
how gu ma and her takecare of me
the care and everything tat hey give
i remember she nv scold me and my sis de
always there to protect me when my mummy scold me
sayang me when i am cry,
always ask my mummy to stop scolding me
oso go to child care to bring me home
coz i nv do homework or wat
she always has to please the teacher to let me home
sayang me and ask me dun cry
when i a damn scare of the teacher
without she i will nv be here
i loved my ah ma and gu ma
hoping she will reali get well soon
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, July 03, 2008
anyway i been working nowaday.
tue went to NANA wif mango.
last time my fav de PLUSH.
hehe. kind of nth to happy abt.
dunno why i am moody jiu shi moody
mango and friend send me and mei xiu home
wed went wrk like normal nv reali drunk
but i kind f dun like to drink le.
pls nxt time dun ask me drink so much
unless is i wanna drink de
drnking few customer nia.
anyway i am playing a fool.
i noe i xin qin bu hao so wanna drink
wanna make myself drunk
but too bad i so easy drunk jiu hao le
if i drunk do u think i will be here typing
lame right. i going to bath and go malaysia le.
wo hao xiang wo de bao bei ah ma,
wo ai wo de ah ma, ta shi wo de bao bei.
even how ppl say to me pls dun go alone
but i set my plan mean it will nv change
shawn understand what i mean
coz we are abt the same nv change
what we wanna do if we plan it.
anyway i saw ppl tat i dun like yday
but t okay la i oso got to noe a few new friend
hehe. only gladwin noe i sad bah.
coz i walk in to bar and drop tears
only at bar no one will see other than a person
drink alot but nv drunk so sad.
i now den noe how important is him
a single call and few min of chat
can make me so happy nia.
reali a big thank to him,
but i reali hoping to help him
it seem to be so hard nia.
love him much more than he love me.
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
