♥Sunday, April 29, 2007
what to do.... she and him.... are hey reali trying to mess up my life... do u like her... if u do... den no point.... i will treat it as nth happen us.... nth.... becoz i reali think it is kind of tong qin wo.... so u treat me like this... jacklin noe me de.... a wei jie... a kenny... it more den enough.... it more den what i reali can suffer.... now i reali think my life is mess up by u 2.... do u think i will say thank you to you.... i dun think so.... you are trying to ask someone to tong qin wo.. can i say i dun wan tong qin... what i wan is his heart... please.... let me rest... take a long break...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Saturday, April 28, 2007
sometime i think i$ am jus a fool... ppl are making me like a fool.... i dunno what the reason of telling her... thing between us.... dun think it abit funny to let her noe.... whatever i do u must tell her... if i will to say.... she is the 1 tat makes me jealous... the way she talks.... end of the week.... friday... tml is weekend le... today i didn't go to sch... tot tat the lesson is veri boring.... i sleep till jus now den wake up.... later going to work again.... the same, after work i think i will be ended up in boat quay.... but who i gonna meet up.... chris becoz he go meet celest.... i dunno... or i ownself go.... see how den... tonite will i drink... i dunno... will i cry... i wish not... i jus hoping i am not a fool.... i jus hoping i will 4get him soon... i alway end up in this suffering part.... i dun wan anymore... i jus hope i will 4get and i can over come it.... looking at him chatting wif ger so close... may be in the past when we will together i will be alright wif tat or may be a little jealous only.... i dunno y... until we br up den i will get so jealous... but now he even got the right to hug a ger, kiss a ger.... i got no right to stop him.... haiZZ... dunno la...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Chris again... lolx... he sen me a msg monday nite... so touch to see it.... most of the ppl noe i still love him.... even is i ownself yi xian qin yuan de oso nvm.... as long as i noe my feelin is still 4 him and only him.... stupid sia... he ask no guy sian wo meh.... can see i go reject everyone tat jio me... coz of u... coz i still love u.... but it jus tat u dun wan to give me a chance again to get u noe how much i love u.... i dun wan to hurt anyone else.... coz my heart got no place for other.... haiZ... no one understand... how shock when i noe a week de relationship will hurt me so deep... leyt me think of u everytime and everywhere.... i remember ur face becoz i so scare tat i can't see u anymore.... i wan to save it in my mind... so whenever i think of u... i will noe the person i miss look like wat.... may b we will click again... what tat... i jus hope u will think about it.... give me a 1 last chance.... love u always...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
today i think i am crazy is tue but i went down to boat quay to find someone.... muhaha.... guess who... dun wan tell u... tml is tat pub anniversary... so dunno got go down... saw jacks de hand... so ke lian... sob... jacks reali a veri friendly person from what i noe now.... hehe... tml got sch nia... EOA coursework... nvm... left print out only... finish printing... den can rest le...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
Chris, do u noe there is alot of ppl wanna hold on to my hand... care 4 me... but do u noe i only wan u back.... i miss u so much.... why i veri week end will go boat quay.... it's becoz i wan to see u.... ur face is always in my heart... ur voice is always in my mind... ur everything is always flowing in my life.... i can't live without u... i can drink until veri drunk but i cannot 4get u..... when ever u walk pass me.... i will keep looking at u.... like last sat.... tot u wun come coz i only saw john and ah yang.... but when u came... my mind is again only u.... ah bear told me... tat sat when we quarrel... u go up to tat pub to tell him.... thing tat happen between us... i knew u went up to tat pub... but i dunno why... now tat i noe it becoz of me... so u go up to find someone to talk... i reali felt so sad... at 1st i told myself i wun be crying on last sat nite.. but ended up becoz of thing about u, i cry again... lucky is when u went to Rush or wat... when u not in tat pub... but u all came back.... i so heart broken... my friend told me... is may be becoz u and ur thing... or its becoz u got another ger.... or its beocz u reali dun wan to be wif me.... i got tot so... but dun wan think so much... i so scare... i scare i will go crazy becoz of u...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Thursday, April 19, 2007
i didn't go sch today.... haha... coz yday i actually 1am like tat sleep but until 3plus or 4am den sleep.... den today over slept.... i will wake at 10am when i need to go sch at 8am... haha.. i send good nite msg to alot of ppl.... i send to him too... tot tat he wun reply... but he got msg me back a good nite msg... it mean what... he not avoiding me le.... or jus being kind to reply me.... dunno... nvm... tml i will try to ask him out... see what he say... or will he reply me... hehe.... hmm... i hope he will reply... i hope he will come back to me... i can hug him like the last....
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Wednesday, April 18, 2007
whenever i see you... i feel like huging u from the back.... i use to do it le.... but now what can i do.... u contact celest but not me.... remember when we was together what u say to me.... now we jus broke up den u r trying ur veri best to avoid me.... and yet u contact my sister, my friend..... u think i am not around or u think i am dead.... reali reali want you back..... i noe this wish wun come true.... but yet i still wish it will.... 99% u r gone... or even fall in love wif other ger.... but yet i think hope 4 tat 1% of it... i hope i still can hold on to the 1% of ur heart. Chris.... a week de relationship become so meaningful to me.... so mush more than i tot it could me. Chris, i love u! i reAli reAli love u. give me a chance to mean it to u. please!!
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
whenever i think of u.... u wasn't there at all.... now i think of u... but u r gone.... i noe i may be jus a xiao mei mei to u.... but dun u noe how much i reali need u... ppl always said time will heal everything.... but yet i dun think so.... it gonna be 2 week since we broke up.... but yet my feeling is still so strong.... it was jus like the day when we was together.... i can't 4get everything tat u done 4 me.... those thing tat anyone can do but when u does it, it was diff from other.... it become a kind of love.... i noe u dun reali love me at all... tat the reason u can pick it up and put it down so fast..... Avoid.... isit the only thing u can do now.... we r friend don't we.... so what for doing it to me... avoiding is like a 14 year old kid do de thing.... dun tell me u r 14 when u already 23.... age doesn't matter to me... even u are 6year older than me.... ur past doesn't matter too... coz from tat day i tot of being wif u.... i already knew ur past and i dun mind at all.... all i hope is u will hold my hand.... and dun let go... i will love u 4 my life time.... the 1st time i tot of saying this to a guy.... even now u had let go of my hand.... i will still love u.... and it 4 my life time... not 4 awhile... LOVE you so much, CHRIS.....
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Monday, April 16, 2007
i will wait.... everyone noe i can wait 4 a person for 2years time... so i will wait.... try to avoid me... i treat i as you r trying to cool down... i noe i am stubborn and stupid.... i promise i wun cry when all the ppl is around.... i promise i wun do stupid thing.... i promise until this month end... i will try not to contact u.... try my very best.... not to distrub u....
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
dead ROSE, dead LOVE
it's my 1st rose frm you, is i also my last rose...i reali hope i am wrong...
darling.... u dun wan me le.... i miss u so much... i noe i veri fan.... but please please dun avoid me anymore.... even its only 1 week de relationship but u noe it mean alot to me.... i LOVE u wif all my heart... u think i am talking rubbish den u r wrong... comfirm wrong.... if u will to give me another chance... i will let u noe how much i love u... and not keeping it wif me.... get u think i dun love u when i love u even more den u do..... i noe i need u.... but will i get another chance.... dun avoid me la... i dun disturb u le... i wun cry le.... i miss u... i reali miss u.... please i am waiting...."I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Monday, April 09, 2007
sorry 4 what i did when i was drunk... but u noe when i saw ur msg my tear drop & i could stop it..... dun call u dear anymore.... break up ang let be friend... easy 4 you to say so..... but hard 4 me to do tat.... Chris... i wan another chance please... even how hey say you treated me so bad... i dun care... i think u treated me well can le.... let you cool down.... i think nxt month den say ba..... haiz
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Sunday, April 08, 2007
i am so drunk yday... i done all those stupid thing.... tat my dear dun like... now tat he is angry... i dunno what to do... he didn't contact at all..... i hope nth will happen.... i only love u.... please 4give me.... no other guy can replace u in my heart... u must noe this.... haiZ....
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
♥Friday, April 06, 2007
i LOVE you!!
i LOVE chris.... dArling, we every time go night life... always go boat quay de pub.... next week we go k-box ah.... and u own me a movie today.... i say want watch movie... so u say meet me after work at suntec, my shop outside... but ended up we go meet ah yang go viva..... tml we 1 week le..... muackz... my dear... i reali fall in love wif u.... even i at pub always got guy take my number or talk to me... or ger take ur number or talk to u... but hey r nth to me... only u mean so much to me...
"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your
heart."
