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♥Thursday, July 27, 2006

i went to hua yi sec sch today.... but i didn't go to sch again.... reali miss my sch alot.... miss my classmate.... i tml sure will go sch de.... hehe.... went to hua yi to take my GCE N level chinese oral exam.... but i was th 2nd last to take the exam la... becoz i not their sch de.... but the student there abit funny but not as funny as my classmate.... i didn't even chat wif them.... jus sit there becoz i got no energy at all..... wait 4 about 1 hours plus... finish the oral i and my sis faster take taxi home.... we took taxi there too.... i want to go back to sch tml.... dun wanna miss my lesson.... hehe....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Tuesday, July 25, 2006

me got veri high fever this morning at 4am.... haiZ.... 40.1°c.... didn't go to sch again.... 9 something go see doctor.... but at tat time no fever le.... doctor give me 2days MC.... didn't go sch today.... didn't go 4 my N level oral exam.... i asked my er jie to call my sch principal.. coz i reach home fever come back again.... so call my principal to let her noe... and ask her can i take the test nxt time.... coz i got no energy and having fever.... she say okay and she will handle it.... hehe.... i hope i still can take tat test.... hehe.... hope i tml jiu hao le... den can go sch.... handle everything....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, July 24, 2006

me still having abit fever.... going to get well soon.... hehe... so happy.... tml i going to have my N LEVEL oral exam.... hope the qns tat they will ask is easy... hehe.... gd luck to myself... gonna pass all my exam 4 N level.... hehe.... so tonite i have to slp early too.... but no bad dream... okay? hehe.... no more bad mood too... hehe.... later den slp la...

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Sunday, July 23, 2006

haiZ... not reali dun have friend.... but all the friend r all new friend..... so where is my old friend.... those hu i toto hey r my best friend in the past.... those tat i will go to them and ask 4 help.... hey r all gone.... what a stupid sch... i dun think i had friends in tat sch.... becoz in the past i had but now hey r all gone.... not reali gone missing but jus tat the friendship between me and them r gone.... i knew tat relationship will nv last.... but i dunno friendship oso wun last long..... ppl always say we r friend 4ever.... but hey dun mean it.... dun say tat to me.... i dun believe it anymore..... i am having high fever again..... what to do... haiZ...

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Saturday, July 22, 2006

i had a bad dream jus now.... tat make me so shock when i wake up... i only noe i dream tat i pass away or what.... becoz when i wake up... i almost tot tat i reali die le... i tot tat i die le.... i felt so afraid... tat i faster call mac.... i ask him when is he now.... think he noe i am crying so he asked me what happen.... i tell him about the dream.... den tell him jus now i tot tat i die le.... so i try to call him... see wheather it true anot.... haiZ..... actually i have been thinking if die le more gd... but jus now i was so afraid tat i reali pass away.... may be its becoz i still dun wan to leave this world... or i still got alot of wish or thing i haven do at all... or i miss my family alot and dun wish to leave them.... but i now reali dun dare to go back to slp le..... i scare tat i slp le jiu can't wake up le.... what should i do.... y u make me dream of this.... now i can truly tell u "i dun wish and dun wan to die..." so dun bring me away.... i dun wan to leave yet.... i wan to live on... as long as i can..... please let me get well soon.... but thank 4 all the friend tat pei me chat jus now..... if u all wasn't there 4 me... i will go crazy....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

today is Racial Harmony Day..... we had to so sch.... no need to study.... but have to do CIP hours.... this year we nv go collection newpaper le.... we went to west coast park.... den after tat go back to sch.... got Charity Bazaar and Racial Harmony celebrations....my classmate got a performance..... so nice sia.... i gonna put their pic up... waiting 4 my friend to send me the pic.... hmm... i feel so bad.... i still having fever... it the 5th day le.... i wish i could get well soon.... i got to study anyway... but sickness make it so hard 4 me.... coz i got no energy at all.... haiZ.... 39.6°c.... siao sia... going to die le.....♀♥♂

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Friday, July 21, 2006

yup... i went to sch today.... go sch more die sia.... we had 6 lesson in the comPuter Lab.... sIao sia.... iT iS sO cOld inside.... i cold until fever come back again..... WTF.... i having more worst de fEver.... high fever... so sick.... the sickness has eaten up all my energy.... make me got no energy at all.... knowing tat myself has miss alot of lesson in sch.... but what can i do.... can i choose when to fall sick.... if i can.... i will rather sick after all my exam.... nxt monday is my chinese oral.... dun make me can't take the test pls.... pls let me get well soon.... i want to study and it is study hard.... so PLEASE....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Thursday, July 20, 2006

haiZ.... i nv go sch again.... miss alot of lesson le sia.... haiZ.... exam coming le.... i keep getting sick..... what to do? haiZ..... me today nv go sch so have to get MC..... i went to see doctor jus now.... becoz i have been having fever for 3days, so i have to do a blood test.... the doctor took my blood... so painful.... tml the report will be out.... aiya... i think nth to will happen la... not so unlucky la.... hehe... but sometime how i wish i can die without any pain.... tat must be great.... dun u think so?

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Tuesday, July 18, 2006

OH mY gOd.... i still having fever.... so xin gu.... i dun like to go see doctor.... so i go to sch today.... i feel like i got no energy at all.... den afternoon my fever is back again... sick until dunno what to say le... not feeling like eating again.... but mama wan me to eat... and she go buy food 4 me... see how lor... if still sick and fever den go see doctor.... get MC.... if hao le more gd... no need waste money and time.... dunno la....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

my fever is back again.... having high fever now.... WTF.... i tml wan go sch de hor..... so pls go away....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

last nite... i was so xin gu.... can't slp at all.... den i found out tat i was having fever..... i sick again... oh my god.... exam is coming.... i still sick.... today morning wake up still having fever... so nv go sch... no energy to go see doctor.... so nv go get MC.... what to do.... now hao abit le... so oso no need to see doctor le... so i am staying at home 4 the whole day.... not going anywhere.... haiZ....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, July 17, 2006

got nv go anywhere... but jus staying at home.... at nite went out wif my mum to buy dinner.... i tml onward on diet.... so uwun see me eating in sch.... or outside... hehe.... i getting fater and fater... dun do all this... 1 day will be come zhu.... haha.... tml going to sch wif my new sch shoes.... isn't it nice.... i upload he photo yday.... hehe.... tml monday again.... gtg slp soon.... if not i sure will late 4 sch de.... dun wan late anymore.... so go slp now better... hehe... bye....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Saturday, July 15, 2006

i today go back to queenway.... to see my baobei.... hehe.... den both oso at there... so happy.... den pass my friend a pair of shoes and he oso pass me the same thing.... but mine is 1 and only in singapore.... my friend help me to draw de lei.... so nice... i like it so much.... monday wear to sch... hehe.... den wait 4 friend in taxi stand.... we take taxi to friend de pub.... long time nv go there le.... hehe.... drink abit only coz i start to hate beer le.... i like pure vonka more.... hehe.... beer sux man.... den we play cards games and sing songs... den went out wif mac hey all... we go eat den we go home.... hehe.... gd rite.. so tired... reach home more tired.... wanna slp le... hehe.... my dear... i miss u all... takecare....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

today take de photo.... hehe... got nth to do.... hehe.....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

as like the same i went to school..... but abit moody.... i act like nth happen.... it so xing gu sia.... so blur sia... today i 4got to bring alot of thing.... 1 of the most important thing is money.... haha.... den went home to bath and change.... coz going out wif francis.... we went to town to watch movie..... den walk walk lor.... i jus reach home only.... hehe.....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Friday, July 14, 2006

me late 4 school 4 late day.... sch already start late today den i late 4 sch.... i teach ppl do homework until myself so angry and tired... coz tat person keep saying stupid thing tat make me scold him... haha.... so stupid.... haiZ.... i dun wan to have liar in my life.... dun lie to me again.... get lost.... go away.... dun u noe what i wan is not a person tat dun care aout me..... hmm.... i am not say him... so dun think so much... saying another person.... hu always dunno what he is doing.... haiZ..... i can't take it anymore.... nvm... tml i going out wif someone.... hope he could cheer me up.... at least i wun but so moody.... haiZ.... u suxz... u noe who u r....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Thursday, July 13, 2006

i reali reali wan to change myself.... change not becoz of other.... becoz of my own.... i dun wan to be this me tat is so stupid.... i trying my best to jus study in school... being friendly... not scolding ppl 4 nth... so tat my life in sch will be much better... but to some of my classmate... i dun need to treat them so good.... haha.... hope to let ppl see a new me.... hope i can do tat... coz i always can't do what i wanted.... like the past... i wanted to end it asap... but i can't do it.... haiZ.... tml late day.... so good... got math lesson... must study.... haha....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Wednesday, July 12, 2006

today go sch so tired.... haiZ.... i copy jasmine work den start to slp in science lesson..... den math oso slp 4 awhile.... haha.... teacher nv come again 4 today.... but got work to do... eOa n level paper.... me finish all... mdm ng so ke lian... hey make her so angry and nv give her any face.... make her walk out of the class.... so ke lian... haha.... den we go math extra lesson... den got 1 ah siao walk in of the class den start to scold me... she say what i dun wan to tell her which room we r in.... i dun even noe tat she called me and msg me.... coz i put my hp in my bag... she nv think b4 she scold... siao kia... at there scold scold.... WTF.... i was so angry... nvm... since u wan like tat... we dun be friend lor... be friend oso for 3more month only... den may be wun see each other le... u think la... i am not in the wrong so i dun care.... i nv say anything wrong or done anything wrong.... dun u think so... haha.... but i was so angry la... becoz kanna scolded 4 nth.... she sux and siao de la.... dun wan care about her le...

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Tuesday, July 11, 2006

hmm... today went to sch.... but so lucky... i nv do homework.... den tat teacher nv come.... watch world cup ah... den nv come... haha... dunno.... but me got 5 lesson no teacher.... haha... slp 4 almost 3 lesson in class.... haha.... once dismiss... i faster go home... dun wanna stay outside... haha.... wanna be gd ger... stay at home... waiting 4 u to reply again... u like pig de sia... haha.... francis ask me out again on fri.... dunno he sure anot... but i sure will free de... coz actually last wk fri i am going out wif him de.... den my gu ma pass away... so have to go back malaysia.... so nv meet him... k l... stop here....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Monday, July 10, 2006

i reach home.... reach singapore le... so tired... i haven finish my homework.... so scare will kanna scold by teacher.... hehe... dun care le.... me too tired le... wanna slp le..... haha.... but anyway me still so moody... haiZ....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Sunday, July 09, 2006

i almost fall down.... now my leg so pain.... haiZ... suayz.... nth to say.... me getting fat le.... hope is fat only.... not other thing.... haha.... my 2 sister watch tv outside... we now at cousin house.... jus back from the place.... so sad.... i feel like crying but i hold on to it.... hehe..... so sian... me going to slp soon.... dun care about them le.... haha..... dun wanna get them noe i almost fall down.... haha.... but my leg now is reali painful.... got nth much to say.... bad thing is happening..... so watch outz..... haha.....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Saturday, July 08, 2006

i am now in malaysia..... my mother side de family member pass away.... so we had to come back.... when i heard this bad news from my sis.... i was so shock to hear tat.... haiZ.... so sad.... it reali a bad news.... haiZ..... reali dunno what to say..... i am staying until sunday den go back to singapore.... i got so any homework to do..... i haven ever done 1.... got no mood to do all those homework le..... haiZ..... i dunno what happen in my class.... it seem like alot of ppl in my class start to dislike me... nvm.... i dun care.... hey dun dare to say me infront of me.... only dare to scold me as in not looking at me but scolding me.... isn't it funny.... haha....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Friday, July 07, 2006

today went to sch... i noe i should start to study... there is no time 4 me to play around le.... i will try my best to bring my heart back to study.... even i knew my heart will still stay wif him.... but i still need to study.... haiZ... life is too short le... hehe.... i jus wan to study and do my best 4 my N level... i dun care what my classmate think about me le... dun care about those teacher tat dislike me.... its my life, my study.... i will nv talk about him in this blog le... there is a 1 and only blog 4 him... only 4 him....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

♥Wednesday, July 05, 2006

tat day go pub i oso drink alot but i nv drunk lei... but yday i was drunk.... i think becoz i drink too fast.... and i drink alot.... haiZ.... y did i drink so much nowadays... may be is becoz of him.... he make me feel so confuse... haiZ.... stop here.... today i went to sch.... not feeling well... have been sick 4 so long.... let me die la.... it better.... i sleep in the sick bed 4 so call whole day.... den went 4 n level eng oral exam... i told the teacher tat i not feeling well den i become 1st 1 to take the exam.... haiZ.... dunno do i done well anot.... coz veri sick.... i found out alot of bad news today... which make me cry all over again.... thank alot to them.... leave me alone.... i need to study le....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."

i was veri moody nowaday.... i dun even noe what myself is doing.... u say tat u r confused.... me too... u make me even more confuse.... i could feel ur heart there is still a veri little place 4 me.... i could feel ur hug and kiss... it was still the same like b4.... but i oso could feel u far away from me..... why did u lie to me.... u should have tell me in the 1st place.... den i might have stay away from u le.... now tat we r both so confuse.... what the point... haiZ....

"I just wish to be with you, Be the one in your heart."